That's the sound of the Police (BakuDeku)

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Deku Pov- TW: Self Harm thoughts, Panic attack

I trudged into our dark room and Dropped to my knees on the cream carpeting, panting and letting the tears that I had been holding back for years fall down my face, staining my pale skin with their pain. I couldn't breath as it all ran through my head. the hatred, the pain, the scars. I wanted to do it again, to run a small silver blade along my skin, to pay for all my mistakes. I heard the door slam open behind me and a angry Kachan storm into the room.

"going on your own? what the fuck are you thinking! what-"

he cut off when he saw me, kneeling on the floor, coughing and choking on the taste of my own tears, holding my chest like it was going to burst, remembering all the things that they had said, all the things my father had said, all the things the bully's at school had said, all the things my mind had said.

Kachan hesitated for exactly half a second before closing the still wide open door and rushing to my side, sliding to his knees and placing a hand on my shoulder, scotching around so that he was kneeling in front of me. I pulled my hands off the floor and covered my ears, trying to keep the voices out. I didn't know what was happening and I looked at Kachan. one look at my face and Panic and recognition overtook his.

"Oh shit...shit shit shit...uh..."

He looked around and grabbed my phone off the ground next to me, opening it to call someone but I hissed and Knocked it out of his hand haphazardly. I landed with a soft thump on the carpeted floor and Kachan looked at me. I placed a hand over my chest, trying to catch my breath and choke out a hasty couple words.

"n-no....n-no one e-else..."

I sputtered and then my throat started to close and I coughed, shaking and trying desperately to catch my breath. Come on Izuku! Mafia Leaders don't do...this! You haven't had one in years! get it together! Kachan looked at me and gulped, nodding his head slightly. He hesitated for a second before grabbing my hand and placing it on his chest, holding it there, he then placed his other hand on my chest.

"Izu...Listen to me alright? I'm right here. I'm real. just focus on my breathing and my heartbeat. try and match it, can you do that?"

I nodded shakily and focused on my hand on his chest. It felt like my world was spinning and his hand was the only thing keeping me anchored. I focused on the steady rise and fall of his chest and he took long, deep breaths and I did my best to match them. when my breathing finally steadied I looked up at Kachan.

"Fucking hell...Not again..."

he sighed and flopped back to lean against the bed frame, looking confused and a bit relived that my fit was over.

"you just had a panic attack?"

I sighed and nodded. I used to have them all the time, but the last time I had one was the night I killed my father. they came with self hatred, Depression, Suicideal thoughts, all the fun stuff. I looked away from him and stood up. I'm A fucking Mafia leader, His mafia Leader, I'm not allowed to be scared like that, not anymore. I was wide awake after that and I moved to the dresser to grab my assasin costume. 

"sorry you had to see that."

"s' fine."

he muttered and I smiled as he slurred his words. he really was tired no joke. I pulled on the hoodie that accompanied my Assasin black pants and all the gadgets I had stashed in my sock drawer. 

"your still going? even after that?"

I scoffed and chuckled a little, still not facing him and pulling my hood up over my broccoli green hair and pulling on the fingerless gloves that were made with the costume. they weren't my special ones but they would do just fine for this mission. 

"Of course I am, they are hurting that little girl and the team is right. I have to do something about it."

I clipped the belt around the hips of the black slacks and pulled on my black combat boots, lacing them with the green laces which had the ability to glow in the dark just like the stitching and the cuffs of the hoodie. a genius idea by Sato while making them with Momo.

"And I can't talk you out of it?"

I shook my head and pulled on my glasses, checking that all the fancy features were working, as well as the features I wouldn't be needing but were good to have in case of emergency. I also checked the belt and all the gadgets.

"Can I at least be on coms?"

I snorted and looked at him one eye brow raised, tightening the clasp on my glove. Kachan was half passed out on the bed and his eyes were closed. I know the past week has taken a toll on him no matter how much he doesn't want to admit it. 

"I don't know if I want you on com's in this state."

He sat up and glared at me, crossing his arms as I giggled and loaded amo into each of the three smaller guns that I usually had hidden on my body, along with my sniper riffle. It had been a while since I used the tool. I sort of missed it. 

"Haha, very funny."

I sighed, of course Kachan wouldn't just drop it. I turned to face him and planted my hands on my hips, staring him down.

"you know you aren't exempt from my orders, right? anyway, its a simple rescue mission. I just going to go get the kid and come back."

He scoffed and stood, taking the sniper riffle from me and boarding his eyes into me. I rubbed the back of my neck and sighed, leaning away from him.

"You are taking this all to lightly. you are going into the lions den, alone. what the fuck is wrong with you?"

I shook my head and pulled my gun out of his hands, strapping it to my back and pulling up the mask that was attached to the hoodie, walking away from him and heading to the window.

"Izuku."

I paused and turned back to him, my eyes alighting on his own blood red ones. they were concerned. I sighed and crossed my arms.

"There is nothing wrong with me Katsuki. I am doing this."

he scoffed and walked over to me, I flinched as he placed a hand on my shoulder and I looked up at him.

"you just called me Katsuki so you're at least a little worried."

shit, he knew my trump card. I looked down and rubbed my hands together. it was particularly cold in the compound tonight. Probably Todoroki having a breakdown again. I will drop in on him before I leave, his dorm is right next to ours so I can just go out his window. I started walking away from the window before I felt a pair of strong arms wrap around my torso. Kachan settled his head on my shoulder and I sighed, giving in and ruffling his golden hair with my hand.

"I will be fine Kat. I will come back home to you."

His grip tightened and His knuckles whitened around his wrists. he shook his head and mumbled.

"I have heard that before."

I furrowed my brow and pulled out of his grasp only to turn and wrap my arms around his neck. enveloping him in a hug.

"This time, I mean it."

then I pulled away and left without another glance back into the room.

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