Loved U Yeserday

A Stand still

Max

I couldn't even focus on the unnecessary algebra homework my math teacher, Matt Perkins gave us on the first day back---if I didn't know any better I'd say he gets some sort of sick, sadistic, twisted enjoyment from our misery. Although, I was secretly happy because I loved math but numbers and equations were the last thing on my mind. I couldn't stop thinking about Kelsey, couldn't get her off my mind, couldn't get over the advice Joel gave me. Couldn't help but feel as though it was finally time to act on my feelings...

My left hand on my head, my right hand on my chest, as I lay on my bed---staring at the ceiling, Kelsey roamed my mind, she quickly became the ruler, dominating over and disposing of any thought that dared enter my head. This worried me slightly, I feared falling in love, feared what happened with Taelyn might just happen again, feared that I may not be able to love Kelsey like I did Taelyn, feared the place of frustration and depression I may love Kelsey out of. Blinded by emotions uncommon and rare to me. I feared I may become so consumed by a girl again, that it would distract from my school work, books and my main goal---getting my family the heck out if this dump!

I questioned whether it was the right time, whether I was ready or not, whether I had become too rusty? I shook my head in attempt to dispose of all these thoughts.

You're going to do this Max! No matter what!

I shut my eyes and my mind had been made up, nothing was going to stop me. No one. Never. Or so I thought...

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And as my love doctor advised, I decided that today would be the day I approached Kelsey. I got to school with a wide grin---one that Scott questioned me about the entire ride to school, Tessa noticed but didn't dare say anything. She remained glued to her phone, texting the very friends she'd see at school, in a few seconds. As soon as we arrived I tried to get away from both of them as quickly as I could, so that I could begin strategizing and planning the perfect way to ask someone out.

I sat patiently in the final class of the day, biology. It just so happens to be the same one Joel takes. She came over and sat in the suddenly vacant seat in front of me---mid lesson. As I stared down the clock, anxiously waiting for the final bell of the day to go off.

"What's up? What are you looking at?" She asked, with a playful tone. She had a smile tugging at her lips, one I've never seen before, at least not that wide. If I didn't know any better I'd suggest she's blushing? No, no. This is Joel August, Booker's chic, I need to focus on the mission, on Kelsey.

I couldn't help but admire the sparkle in those eyes. I shook my head, trying desperately to focus on the task at hand and that alone. I had finally managed to bag the balls I required to approach Kelsey. I had waited far too long to get distracted now. "Nothing much... I think it's time though."

She shot me a confused look. "Yeah, it's almost time to leave, I guess." She didn't understand but quickly moved past what I said.

"No. I meant, I think I'm ready to finally ask Kelsey out." I said with a grin. Just saying it out loud felt so good, I wish I could yell it out for the entire school and world to hear. I mean, I have been crushing on her ever since that faithful day when she got cast as the lead---kidding, it's actually since the first time I saw her at school, when she walked past me and shot me a jolly smile. It felt great to finally tell someone, I've been keeping it in all day, desperately resisting the urge to tell Scott, no matter how much he guessed, begged and faked disinterest.