The First & Last Summer

Chapter 7

Over the next few months, I had been hanging out with the Dairs and august. August showed up less and less but we hung out when he did. He would sometimes sneak me to his room to make out or sometimes to have me touch him, which I didn't mind, but it was weird. His mom was always interrupting whatever we were doing whenever he did hangout.

No one ever said anything, it was somewhat an unspoken rule now. I didn't like Luka and he definitely didn't like me either but over the first two months we had been — cordial. Understanding almost. Then we became — friendly — I'd say. We spoke more, when august wasn't around me and Luka would hang out. When school started I was a bit of a loner the first three months. No one spoke to me and I didn't speak to anyone.

Then my new friends found me. It was a group of art kids. There was samantha, Samantha's girlfriend Lindsey, leaf, leafs partner who we called frog because they didn't like their real name, then we had Alex who had two partners axil and Markus, and that made our group. The 8 of us were all kinda inseparable.

I still divided my time fairly, my friends got me from 6-5pm on weekdays and the kids go me from 5pm - 10:30 on weekdays. My friends got me from sun up to 4 am on Fridays and then on Saturday the kids from 9 am - Sunday night. And that's how we all got around. Luka and august had their own friend groups so we never really hung out in school. Luka made a point to say hello to me every morning. August seemed to avoid me in school.

He always had someone wrapped up under him. Like right now, as me, Lindsey, Sam, leaf and frog ate lunch; august and his group of friends sat 9ft from us. He had a pretty blonde girl with bubble pink highlights in her hair and makeup. It brought out her features well and was nice on her. He had two main girls. The blonde and then the girl with red hair. The girls didn't like each other but they would be cordial when on august.

"He disgust me," Lindsey sighed. Everyone nodded in agreement except me. "What? Why?" I asked as I took another bite out of my sandwich. "He sleeps with those two." Leaf pointed, leaf didn't like him neither. "Sleeps? Like has sex with?" I asked. "Yeah, rather habitually," leaf explained. Frog grabbed leafs hand. They were the cutest couple ever. "Well... well shit..." I mumbled. "What? What do you mean?" Frog immediately jumped in.

Frog was a drama eater, they never said anything but they loved hearing about it. Leaf was the same way, they both ate drama up like crazy. Sam and Lin kinda minded their business but we all gossiped, more them than me because I didn't know anyone. "Uhm.. well me and august know each other because me and Lukariah's parents are family friends and business partners." I explained. They all nodded. "And he asked me on a date in the summer that turned into a kids hangout that then turned into a make out session in my room." I mumbled.

"Oh shit." Lin mumbled. "And so, now, whenever me and august see each other out of school he'll take me on little hangouts for about 30 minutes before taking me to his house. We'll make out, and sometimes he'll have me uhm -" I made the hand gesture and Sam gagged. "He has you JERK HIM OFF?!" Lin whispered yelled the end. I nodded. "Oh shit, this is — oh shit." Leaf waved. Frog giggled. "Wait so, did you know? About those two?" They asked pointing.

I shook my head and looked down. "I don't want to be like that to him.." I mumbled. "Awe.. he's an asshole!" Sam grumbled. She hugged me and I hugged back. "Yeah girl, you don't need him." Lin shook her head. Frog agreed. They put a chocolate hand upon my Carmel hand and rubbed softly. "He's always been a horny trickster." They nodded. Leaf also nodded their head. "If it makes you feel any better he does this to a lot of girls." Leaf sighed.

I shook my head, "it doesn't make me feel any better." My chest swelled up in pain. I grabbed my food and tossed it. "Talk to you guys later." I mumbled grabbing my bag. I left campus, I'd get the notes later. I couldn't focus. I just wanted to be away. "Oh? You're home early." My mom nodded. I broke down into tears there.

We sat on the couch and chatted about what happens and what I found out. Mom made hot chocolate, "okay well. That's a big pill to swallow." She nodded. I took a sip and sniffled. "I know.." I agreed. "You're valid in being sad, and angry, and feeling all the — really major feelings you're having." She explained. "What he did was common jerk material." She nodded. "Anyways, what I mean to say is we can be sad but we have got to move on. There is ALWAYS better out there." She explained.

I nodded and she invited me into her hug bubble. "Now let's watch some bad girls club and enjoy ourselves." She smiled kissing my cheek.

The weekend approached rather fast. Faster than I appreciated. I already agreed to hangout with the kids this Friday because they wanted to have a slumber party, but I said we could hangout all day but I already had plans for the night. They agreed because they had this weird half day and they weren't going to school. But august didn't have class till 3 pm and Luka had class from 5-8am.

I was currently chatting to Carissa and Justine as august stared me down. I hadn't spoken to him since Monday, when everything happened. I had briefly said hello to him that morning, even though he did that usually stare ignore. Now I was the one stare ignoring. He invited me in this morning and I said nothing, he had grabbed my shoulder and I shoved his hand off. So.

He was trying to figure out why I was mad, it was clear as day on his face. "And then I said, it's never that deep bitch, and walked off." Carissa grinned. "Well that's — something." I laughed. "I didn't have as much fun in eighth grade." I hummed. "It's not like that's funnn for me-"

"Carissa, can you go take Justine to the movie room?" August smiled at her. "Oh shit, yeah, sorry" she laughed. "No no it's okay." I waved. She took Justine to the movie room and I stood. "Why are you ignoring me?" He asked. "I'm not.." I mumbled as I grabbed water for the movie. "Clearly you are, you won't even look at me." He glared. "It's cause I'm doing things.." I responded with.

He caged me in, pushing my body against the counter. I flinched and tensed up pulling my arms close to my chest. "Then stop fucking doing things and fucking talk to me." He growled. My eyes began to well up and my anxiety skyrocketed. "Please - please back u- up-" I stuttered. My body was trembling. "Then fucking talk to me." He growled. "I- I'm not ignoring you-" I gasped out. I was scared.

Everything from my quiet past was coming back full throttle. "Then what are you doing? Enlighten me." He became exasperated with me. "I'm just not jumping out of my way to speak with you." I explained quietly. "Why?" He asked. I didn't answer. He gripped my face turning for me to face him. "Why?" He asked again.

"I just don't see the point, you never respond back, we hangout maybe 30 minutes out of whenever you do talk to me and then fucking whisk me to your room so we can make out and you have me jerk you off." I shrugged. "What?-" august asked. "I don't want to just be some fun time to you." I said in a quiet voice. He lifted my chin. "You're not just some fun time, baby." He smiled.

He leaned in and kissed me. "I'm just busy." He explained. I looked up at him, "then.. those girls under your arm all the time? Who are they?" I asked as I rubbed my wrists together. I didn't want him to lie, please don't lie. He smiled. "They're just my friends baby, there's no one else but you." He promised as he went to kiss me again. "Then what are we?"

I asked confused. "We're... friends." My heart was shattered. I shoved him away looking down. "God! Why are you asking all these damn questions anyway?" He asked. He stepped closer gripping my chin. He yanked me to face him, tears began to dribble down my face. "What? You wanna be my girlfriend or some shit?" He asked. I trembled in his hand. How could I be so stupid. He kissed me gripping my cheeks. "Mind your fucking place, baby." He chuckled.

He leaned into my ear. "Just be a good girl how you have been okay?" He asked. When I didn't respond he gripped my chin harsher. "Y-yes!" I cried out. He let go, leaning back before kissing me. "Good." He left to go to the movie room and I curled up on the floor. What was I even supposed to do? Who could I tell?

I wiped my face and washed with cold water. I brought the snacks into the movie room. They sat on the floor and august on a chair. I didn't want to sit by him so I set the snacks down with the kids. "Come sit here." August called. I looked at him, he cocked up a brow wondering if I would try him. I got up and timidly walked over. He yanked me down into the couch and into his lap.

"August.. I don't want to-" I whispered. He gripped my thigh harshly and I quieted down. We watched movies and the kids talked. I didn't say anything the rest of the time. What could I say? I didn't know what to do.