The Broken One

Chapter 1

"Ruby? Ruby!" The doctor screamed as he waved a mini flashlight in my eyes. I was staring into the distance because I didn't want to answer anyone. I couldn't believe it. I caused this. On my own self. Why couldn't I keep my mouth shut? They still would've been alive if I just never spoke. This is my fault. I. Killed. My. Parents.
"She's in shock." Thanks for stating the obvious.
"What should I do doc? She's a six year old with no family left to care for her." The nurse said.
"No one? At all? Like grandparents? Uncles? Aunts?" The nurse shook her head at all.
"Then call the orphanage." He sadly stated.
"What? The orphanage? Are you sick? She's a six year old!" The nurse yelled.
"Yeah well I don't think there is anything we can do about that Amanda! Call the damn orphanage." The doctor turned back to me.
"You hungry, darl?" He asked. I shook my head no.
"Can you say anything at least?" He asked. I shook my head again.
"Why not?" I motioned for a pen and paper and he pulled a pen out of his coat pocket and reached for a paper on his desk.
I was about to write on the paper when Pheonix and his mom, Lilly, came rushing in. Lilly have me a big hug and I started to cry. It's my fault they're dead. She started crying with me because she's Mommy's best friend. She lost her best friend because of me. When Lilly let go of me Pheonix hugged me and gave me a kiss on the cheek too. He's so sweet. I always had a crush on him but I'm too shy to tell him.
"What's gonna happen to her, doctor?" Lilly asked while Pheonix sat next to me.
"Well she has no family left to care for her.... So we're sending her to an orphanage." He said.
"What? A....an orphanage?"
"Mommy, what's an or-orphanage?" Pheonix asked.
"Oh honey, you're still too young to understand."
He looked at her with his big blue eyes that started to tear up, "Will she be okay, Mommy?" Pheonix asked.
"She'll be perfectly fine." The doctor answered.
He reached for a piece of paper on his desk and handed it to Lilly.
"Surprisingly, this is their will. It says here that if they were to pass on and leave their daughter behind, she would be put in an orphanage. With he best care possible. On one condition that she will not be allowed to be adopted by anyone. But she can have visitors. Her friends can come over. And it also says that the personal social worker is friend of Crystal's, Jasmine Pulton."
"Oh yeah I know her she's one of our closest friends me and Crystal. But why isn't she allowed to be adopted?"
"To be honest, I was hoping you'd know why. They never wrote it on the will." Lilly shook her head.
"I didn't even know they had their will made."
"She will continue school, if she wants to," I nodded, "and she can go out, as well as having sleepovers at her friends' but she just has to live in the orphanage, basically."
Lilly nodded her head.

After Pheonix and Lilly left, Jasmine came to pick me up. She had all my stuff. I still haven't said a word since the accident. And to be completely honest, I don't plan on saying anything anytime soon. I caused enough trouble. And on my birthday too. I'm such a waste. When we arrived at the orphanage it looked more like a castle than an orphanage, fricken huge. Jasmine showed me all the rooms and i can hear the taking and laughing of the boys and the chatting and giggling of some girls. My room was at the top floor, probably 5 flights of stairs. I walked into the room and it was decorated exactly like my room at home was. Except this wasn't home. This is far from home. Jasmine left me alone and went downstairs, saying something about needing to get this stress out of her system. Lucky her. She's probably not got much to worry about, other than her own life, of course. I walked over to my new bed and sat down, looking around, taking everything in. And that's when it hit me. This whole thing is permanent. This, staying-in-an-orphanage thing. I'm staying here and there's no leaving. My God, I killed my parents and now look...

"Ruby. Ruby, honey. Wake up time for school." I heard my Mommy say gently in my ear. I woke up with a jolt and saw Jasmine sitting by my bed with a worried expression on her face. It was just my imagination. They're still gone. And always will be. My eyes started stinging me and I felt that tickle on my nose that I get right before I do something like sneeze, yawn, or cry. Just like Daddy. Rachel probably noticed my now tear-stained face because she was hugging me really tightly. And I wasn't the only one crying either. I looked up and saw Jasmine's bright brown eyes glistening at me. She gave an apologetic smile and nodded in the direction of the door, mentioning me to get dressed for school.

"Honey, everything will be fine I promise. It just needs time." She gave me a little kiss on my head and I nodded.

"Okay." I said weakly. Jasmine looked surprised that I spoke but to be honest, maybe she's right. Maybe I just need a little time to get used to all of this. And I really hope I do get used to it because even I now that if I don't, my life span won't be as long as I'd hoped for it to be...