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COLE'S POV
My father immediately pulled me out of that university. One month na rin kaming nandito sa Canada. Isang buwan na pero hindi pa rin ako masanay sanay na kasama sa iisang bahay si Jamie. We sleep at the same room but not in the same bed. Sa kama s'ya, sa sahig ako. Hindi ko pa s'ya kayang tabihan.
Halos hindi rin kami nag uusap. Mag uusap lang kami if it's about something important. At saglit lang yun. But other than that. Silence were the one invading the space between us. Sobrang nakakabingi yung katahimikan. Nasanay kasi akong sine-sermunan ni Yzabel tuwing umaga pag late ako.
"I wonder what she's doing right now." Bulong ko sa sarili.
"She? Who is she?" Sambit n'ya na bigla biglang sumusulpot sa tabi ko.
Nakatayo ako ngayon sa balcony ng nag iisang kwarto sa bahay na 'to.
"My mom." Sabi ko nalang para hindi na s'ya mag tanong.
"Si tita? Para hindi naman s'ya yung tinutukoy mo." Jamie.
"Jamie, pwede ba? Hindi maganda pakiramdam ko. Tumigil ka muna." Sabi ko bago s'ya talikuran at akmang aalis.
"Lagi kang gan'yan sa'kin. Alam ko naman hindi mo ko gusto, Cole. Pero 'wag mo namang masyadong ipamukha." Natigilan ako sa sinabi n'ya. Parang may dalawang kampanang tumunog sa magkabilang tainga ko at nag panting ito.
"Eh anong gusto mong gawin ko?"
"Pwede bang magpanggap ka naman na ginusto mo rin 'to?" Jamie.
"Jamie, I swear you wouldn't like it when I do that."
"Pa'no mo nasasabi 'yan? Ni hindi mo pa nga na susubukang gawin." She said staring straight to my eyes. "Pwede bang mag panggap ka nalang na mahal mo rin ako?"
"You want me to pretend that I love you?"
"Yes." She said. And without thinking twice I walk towards her. Grabbed her by the waist and kissed her. It feels weird actually.
Yzabel is the last woman I have kissed. And I don't want to kiss anyone other than her but her I am. Kissing the woman I never loved.
She pushed me breaking our kiss. "Why did you do that?"
"That's how I show my love. So now if you want me to pretend that I love you, don't resist." I said then continue kissing her.
Our kisses deepens that I didn't know I'm now slowly removing her clothes. She lays by the bed when I have already removed all her clothes. I also remove mine. This feels illegal but I continue anyway.
Every touch that I'm giving her, makes me feel like I'm cheating on Yzabel. When the fact is wala namang kami. I shouldn't feel guilty for doing this. Jamie is my future wife. Dapat masanay na ko sa presensya n'ya at dapat masanay na kong ginagawa namin 'to.
"Ugh Cole." She's moaning my name. Pero boses ni Yzabel naririnig ko.
"Faster... Cole, faster." What she said makes me remember everything about that night when Yzabel and I were drunk. That was the first time na may nangyari sa'min. The night when everything started.
"Are you ready miss Divinagracia? Or should I call you... Love?"
Dahan dahan kong hinubad ang damit n'ya. She was so drunk to the point na hindi na s'ya pumalag pa. She just let me dominate her. After I remove all her clothes, I gently kiss her lips.
Habang tumatagal, nagiging aggressive na ang dampi ng labi ko. Pero sinabayan n'ya lang. Tinugunan pa n'ya ng ungol bawat galaw ng labi ko. I caressed her thigh first.
"Put it in." Sambit n'ya nang mag hiwalay ang labi namin.
"Your wish is my command."
I slowly insert my two fingers in her.
"Does it hurt?"
"A little. But go on." She said.
Sinimulan ko itong ilabas masok. She moans loudly as I fingers her.
"That's right, love. Moan my name."
"C-cole, make it faster." She utter trying not to crack her voice.
Ngumisi ako at binilisan ang pag labas masok ng daliri ko. While I was doing that, I started kissing her neck again. And now I'm sucking her nipples.
"Cole, malapit na." Yzabel uttered.
Ilang sandali pa at nilabasan na nga s'ya.
"Are you ready for round two?"
"What?" Gulat na gulat na sambit n'ya.
I smirked and then remove my pants.
"Kasya ba 'yan?" Magdadalawang isip na tanong n'ya.
"Just trust me."
Pumikit s'ya habang dahan dahan kong pinapasok sa kan'ya ang sandata ko.
"It's fully in." Dahan dahan akong umulos matapos kong sabihin yun.
Ramdam na ramdam ng kahabaan ko ang loob n'ya. Habang tumatagal bumibilis na ang galaw ko. I lean down to kiss her neck again.
"Malapit na."
"Ako rin. Cole, shoot it inside me." Sambit pa n'ya.
"What?"
"Just do it."
"Pa'no kung mabuntis kita?"
"I don't care."
Sinunod ko lang ang sinabi n'ya.
We both lay on bed while trying to catch our breath.
"Yzabel..." I said not knowing na naririnig ako ni Jamie.
"Yzabel? Sino si Yzabel?" She said breaking the flashbacks I got.
"What? May sinabi ba ko? You're probably hearing things." Pagpapalusot ko. "Ituloy nalang natin 'to, love."
The last word I said drew a smile on her face. I feel like a hypocrite calling her that way when I know I never meant it. Yzabel is the only love that my heart knows.
N/A: Get one and pass. Hindi na naman kabanalan ang laman ng chapter na ito.