"What if things go wrong between us?"
"What if I don't remain the same anymore?"
"What if I become the bad guy?"
He asked me
The only thing I said was
"Then I will remember you as my first love and my first lesson"
Present day
Things indeed went wrong. Mikey and I aren't together anymore. He left me even though I begged him to stay,to let me go with him he still left me.
He came into my life as a sunshine but now he has become the moon. I miss him everyday. I send him texts knowing that he wouldn't reply. I call him just to hear his voice knowing that he wouldn't receive my call.
I longed to see him but when I did it was too late. He was gone forever. He was on the news everywhere.
"Notorious criminal organization Bonten's leader was found dead in Philippines"
I went numb that day. I couldn't take it when I saw him laying on the ground blood flowing out of his head. Those pictures were like a dagger to my heart. I couldn't even touch him for the last time. He was a criminal for the whole world but I knew what he was.
We met on a spring day back in school. He taught me how to fight how to protect myself and how to be strong. And now he's gone leaving me all alone. Now I have become weak. I'm not strong anymore.
I remember when we kissed for the first time, our date,everything. But why? What went so wrong? We were so happy then why things have to become like this?
I remember when we first moved in,bought groceries,lazy Sunday mornings. I remember our silly fights. I remember how he used to take me on a late night bike rides.
I can still hear his laughter,his tantrums. I still remember how much he loved dorayaki. Gosh how am I supposed to live? How am I supposed to move on when this apartment has all of our memories.
Maybe I will never move on, maybe I will always love him.
Hey guys I'm back! Sorry for the short one shot. I was inactive bc my life feels very much inactive right now anyways I hope you guys are all happy and doing well 😊
