Tell Me More (One Shots- GTA RP/RDRP)

just a little bit (Ramee/April)

When April came back to Los Santos, she hadn't specifically planned anything. She only knew she didn't want to be tied down to a gang, tied down to any place or group that housed him.

This time would be different. She'd be her own person, find her own friends- or rather not feel guilty about who she spent her time with.

She'd let herself be controlled a little too much. Because she was a fool. She'd let him do whatever he wanted if it meant she was the number one girl. Obviously, that hadn't been the case so why would she put herself into the position for it all to happen again?

April knows her gang never truly cared about who she hung out with.

"Just don't hang with people we are at war with. It's not much deeper than that." K sternly explained to Ray and her all those years ago. And, she got it. She really did understand.

But hearing one thing from K- her leader and the only person's opinion she should care about when it came to these things, and hearing another thing from Ramee- the person she felt guilty towards whenever she even talked on the phone with Lucas, her assistant at the time, was a constant battle for the redhead.

She feels like maybe she'll eventually find her way back to them. After she got control of her feelings and explored a little. There were too many days since her return that she missed hearing Taco's laugh or missed K and Vinny spoiling her. And just having them there, when she stepped outside of the apartment in Little Seoul. 

Ray and her promised to not jump in too fast, too quick. But the dark haired girl already seemed to be drifting towards them, intentionally with jobs and working for them, while April struggled to avoid them, struggled not to run to them. Because she felt like if she sought them out, she'd fall right back into everything.

But things needed to be different now. She needed to find herself outside of them, outside of him. She didn't need anything tying her to Ramee's words right now. She needed to find her own ground, before she came running back to them, to him. 

At least, that's what she wanted to happen. 

But when the first thing she did when coming back to the city was track down his number, she'd almost managed to convince herself that she wasn't asking because she cared. 

She just wanted to get back in touch with her family, even if she didn't want to hop back in immediately, and she ignored the part of her that reminded her she could have asked Patar for any of her boys' numbers- Mister K, Taco, Vinny. Any of their numbers would have worked.

But she's an idiot for Ramee. She always has been. Even if he never believed it or saw it. Even if she tried her best to deny it.

April would always want just a little bit - of something from him. 

After all these years, and all these promises to herself, she's always just wanted a little bit of everything from him. Even if he had others.

She remembers the first day she was back a few weeks ago, hanging with Carmella. She'd immediately wanted to ask about the relationship with Ramee. 

Were they still together? If not, were they still messing around? Did Carmella and him still love each other?

But she hadn't needed to ask. She got some parts of her questions answered when Carmella admitted to being in some type of 'situationship' with some mayor candidate.

But April's been blindsided before. No matter how much it hurt to admit, Ramee loves Carmella and Carmella loves Ramee, so she'd ignored Carmella's comments about other men, her pretending that nothing was happening with Ramee.