Tell Me More (One Shots- GTA RP/RDRP)

Speak Up (Ramee/April)

We can think of this as a one shot/spin off/additional chapter for Midnights!

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"I'm anxious about us-"

"What the fuck does that even mean?" Ramee grunts at the bare faced redhead. The siren's curled on the couch and avoiding Ramee's gaze. She's a little overwhelmed, well more nervous of the unknown, and not sure what to do or say. But she knows Ramee's not going to let her just walk away.

Not after she started this.

"What do you want from me, April? Nothing I do is right." Ramee sighs loudly after she's quiet for too long. He's standing in front of her, intimidating in all his glory. He doesn't have the basic human consideration to understand that it makes her even more nervous.

"I-I just want-" April bites her lip nervously before chancing a glance at the vulture. He's pissed. She hasn't seen him this pissed since the casino heist shit. Sighing disappointed in herself, the girl looks back at her lap and starts to pick at the hem of Ramee's shirt that she's wearing to bed.

"What? Just fucking tell me so I don't feel like I'm losing my mind." Ramee's tone is a tiny bit softer like he's picked up on her anxiousness, but he's still Ramee so he sounds aggressive. They've been dating for a long time but he still doesn't understand that tough love isn't always the best way.

"It's just-" She takes a deep shaky breath, she can feel the tears fill in her eyes and she's not sure if it's anger at herself for not just saying it or nervousness. She doesn't know how to tell him without telling him because then telling him just makes it worse and could ruin everything but she doesn't know what else to say so she just says it anyway.

"I love you." The room seems to still for a moment. April's not looking at him but she can feel his eyes on her like a burn. He doesn't say anything for what feels like eons and she's nervous, and scared, and can't breath. "And I don't think you love me."

"That's not-" He stops in the middle of what he's saying. April looks up to see the man standing in the same spot, one hand on his hip while the other wipes down his face.

"You don't?" April whispers, hopelessly. She already knew he didn't love her but she still hoped otherwise. It's so quiet in the room but it feels so loud that her ears ring. She allows Ramee to meet her eyes for the first time as he opens his mouth to say something. He looks regretful as he stares back at her.

"Of course you don't." She doesn't even give him the chance to speak before standing up to run into the room. When she gets in, she immediately heads to the closet and pulls out her suitcase. Shakily, she struggles to get the zipper open. She can only hear the sound of her undoing the zipper and her heart ringing in her ears.

She's given up herself completely to someone else. This is why she doesn't date, why money and her own success is most important. Or was most important before he came and ruined everything. She's done this to herself, to be honest.

She knows Ramee's not emotionally open, unapproachable even when he's feeling his best, and since he's a criminal, cruel in a lot of other ways. But she still went ahead and fell in love with a man who used excuses of giving money to try to see her.

Never mind the fact that she used money as an excuse to see him too...

She's going to break down any moment, she needs to get out and she can't breathe or hear or speak.

It takes a lot for her to even stand and start grabbing her shit off the closet rack and messily dump it into the suitcase. She notices that Ramee's favorite hoodie is among the haul and she hates that she notices and she hates that she doesn't put it back.