We're Both Losers Baby

{Chapter One}

"I'm done with you, have a nice life. Freak" my voice shakes, as my smile grows I walk away hoping he couldn't see me crying. He really did it, he chose her.
"Drew it's not your fault-" Henry tries to comfort me.
"BUT IT IS!" I yelled at him finally letting myself cry "If I told him-" choking on my tears "he might've stayed."
Liam winced "You don't know that, but Drew what I do know is that he ignored us for the music club."
"Freaks" I gather myself "the music FREAKS" Liam sighs.
"I know you'll miss him, we all will but Dr-"
"NO!" I'm trying not to cry again "YOU don't have any idea why I'm so upset!" Heaving I tell them the one thing I thought would go to my grave "I'm in love with Jake. I love him, loved?g God, I hate myself for that. He'll never forgive me"
"Not if you don't talk to him." A new voice joined us in the restroom.
"DAISY?! what are you doing in the men's room?!?" I look up at her, mortified. The one person who could possibly make this worse is here. I'm reminded yet again that Jake would never choose me.
"Look, Drew." She sighs "The first step in rebuilding your friendship with Jake is an apology."
"Okay" my voice shakes.

I walk around looking for Jake noticing the eyes on me. What are they looking at? Why are they looking at me? Do they have a problem? Am I the problem? I should disappear.
I look down and decided to go to the roof maybe I'll jump off, I laugh to myself.
Once I'm on the stairs I hear the music freaks- I mean club, talking about Jake.
"Hailey I know you only wanna forgive him cuz he's hot." Zander says "But he's irredeemable."
Luke buts in "Zander, honey no one's irredeemable, except maybe Drew." They all start laughing.
"Ha! Yeah, if Drew asked me to forgive him I'd tell him to kill himself" I hear Zander say.
"That's a little too harsh Zander," Sean buts in "but yeah that guy is terrible."
I stand there just below them trying so hard not to make a sound that I accidentally give myself time to process this.
I realized that this IS my fault I have no right to feel sorry for myself. So I creep behind them following them to the roof, once at the top I see all of them hugging Jake. I walk away after I catch Jake's eye.
"DREW!" He yells after me but I just keep running.

~~~At Drew's House~~~

I feel a light buzz in my pocket. The same buzz I felt every 28 seconds for the last 3 hours. This time I pick up "Drew I-"
"Save it," I say "just text me" I hang up.

🍑Jake From State Farm
-Drew? I have something I need to tell you

Me
-Me too. I just can't talk on the phone right now.

🍑Jake From State Farm
-Oh, it's one of those nights. Are you okay? You can come over.

Me
-I'd like to but I don't deserve to
-crying emoji

🍑Jake From State Farm
-Okay off topic, why do you type out emojis?? Back on topic you're welcome over all the time. But if you come over we are talking about what happened today.
-And before I forget Zander wanted me to tell you he's sorry. He was talking about you and said something out of line?

Me
-Perfect I wanted to talk about earlier anyway, and tell Zander that I don't get easily offended.

~~~30 mins later~~~

🍑Jake From State Farm
-You almost here
seen

I knock on Jake's window "Boo" he startles back and laughs. "So Jake I obviously need to apologize." I start.
"No Drew, you were right I was out of line for-"
"Jake." I interrupted him "I'm not here to ask you to apologize. Yeah, sure you ignoring us for the club was rude but I was beyond rude to you." He started tearing up. "Thinking back on it, I don't even know why I don't like the club." He looks me in the eyes smiling "Jake, I actually play the guitar" I say he looks confused "I learned in like 5th grade. I use music as a way to forget."
"Drew." He says sympathetically.
"Jake, I'm sorry" I continue "I've been a total dick, you don't deserve that."

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AN: thanks for reading this I know that no one actually reads this so 𐂂