We're Both Losers Baby

{Chapter Ten}

TW: ANGST!!!, Car accident, near-death experience, hospitals, SA, benzophillia

AN: GUYS I KNOW ITS MOVING FAST BUT I NEED THIS DONE SO I CAN WORK ON THE DEAD PLATE CROSSOVER (yes, I wrote this in my technical theater class.) If I was naming chapters, this would be "I can't move"

"You're joking," I nervously sweat "who-"
Jake cuts me off "Drew, I like, no I love you."
"No. You don't," I say matter of factly "this is a cruel joke." I turn away and get in the car. 

I drive away leaving him behind staring at me. As I get further and further my eyes blur, my mind races at a million miles an hour, the same question repeats in my mind 'why me', I look down toward the speedometer, I'm 40 mph over the limit, I slow myself as I see a flash of red before I black out.

......

I can't move. 
I can't see.
Who is that?
"Call 911!" I hear a familiar voice. "He could die Zoey! Just because he's your ex doesn't mean we can just leave him! If we do you could get manslaughter!"

The next few things I hear are the quiet mutter of disapproval, a dial tone, then sirens, then all I can hear is the steady beep, beep, beep of my heart monitor, and I can smell rubbing alcohol. 

I hear my mom, "Why are you so stupid Drew, I thought you were smarter than this." she then directs her frustration toward the nurse and I stop listening.

A few hours later I hear rushed footsteps and Jake's voice "Drew!" I want to sigh but I can't move. 
I hear the doctor tell Jake "He can't hear you." well fuck you to buddy.

I hear Jake laugh at him "He can hear me, I can feel it." I try to smirk but still can't move. 

Jake visits, every day. He brought the music club after the competition to excitedly tell me they won, Henry and Liam visited almost as frequently, they came every other day.

"I miss you Drew." Jake says, "I want you to know, I meant it, that day. I really do love you. With all my heart. Even if you never wake up, I won't be able to love anyone else quite this much."

Another few months go by and Jake won't leave my room, I can hear him crying at night. I want to hug him and tell him everything will be alright, but I can't move.

Jake left, he's been gone for a week, I want him to come back, Jake, where are you.

The senior in the music club, Sean I think? Came to visit, he told me that Jake really needs me to wake up, he's in a really dark place and hasn't left his room. I would but I can't move.

He's here. Where is the nurse. Why is he here. Who told him where I was. I need to move. I will move. I need to get out of here. Why is he closing the door. no. No. NO. 

I need to cry. I can't move.

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