Strength In Our Scars

47.

"What happened that night? "

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JOURNAL

"When i touch her... I don't want to let go... But what do i do? I'm at the edge.. I don't like it when i shout at her, or hurt her. But it's just what i have to.. "

"Doctor says that i don't have much time left... And she says that she....loves me...? Whose gonna tell her that i love her too?"

"L-Love? " A whisper escaped her trembling lips

JOURNAL

"I prepared everything...I wrote my cafe and a part of me..Kings, To her name. It is the time to say goodbye, But still i don't want to. I can't hurt her.. She's a pure soul. I just don't want to..I know she'll hate me for this. But i don't have any other option"

"This is my last night... I hurted her... i broke her... I wrote letters for her. Which i don't know if she'll ever read. I want to say... if she ever reads this journal...
I wanna say I'm sorry.. and i love you.. just know that"

"What? " She started to cry more

After crying a little she placed the journal on the bed and took the letters which he left for her. She opened them with her trembling hands. And her heart broke into tiny pieces once again.

LETTER

"Hey! my princess,
I hope you're doing well. And maybe I'm doing well too? I hope you have become what you always dreamt of. I really wished to see your achievements, But look... How fate plays with our innocent wishes! I know you're a strong girl. You must have achieved a lot!

As you're reading this letter. I must be gone now. I know you must hate me for what i did. And i know what i did to you was really hurting. For that... i want to apologize. I know there's no use of apologizing now. But who knows? My soul feels peace after you forgive me?

I want to tell you the reason why i left you like that. and why i never admitted that... I loved you. I love you y/n..My princess.. I know it's too late to confess now. But i didn't had any other choice. I thought it's better to showcase myself as a heartless person rather than breaking you with my love.

I had cancer. I found out about it when i met you. But it was too late. I didn't had much time left. But when i found you... i thought i can live for just a while. And maybe that little time spent with you could make me feel alive. I've always been an arrogant self conscious person. I never liked it if i lose. And i didn't wanted to lose from this game of death.

So, i decided to take my own life. I decided, Before death comes and tears us apart. I must seperate myself from you. And i wanted you to know, If we part like this, May we find each other in dreams. And i wanted you to know that... if we lose each other in the end, please don't hate me. I hope my absence gives you the peace, my love couldn't.

Someday someone will choose you, and keep choosing you everyday.. So hold that someone when the day comes. My love was too much to be shown. And i know your hate must be too much to hold on. So please forgive me. In order to free yourself from this agony.

Non was your fault. You were always right. And you were the best. So you deserved the best. Because i was never the best for you. I was a forced extra character in your life. I had to die.. In order to let you live.