Way back home

CHAPTER 25

"Nathalia Rhaine Ferrer pull yourself back together." he shouted madly at me. I was stunned a lot and can't move. Umakyat na sina Sean at Qhiane.

"Fix this mess. Your engagement with Adrian will resume. Stop being insane with that man. Wala kang mapapala sa kanya." he roared. Hindi pa ako nakakabawi ng muli siyang magsalita. "Mukhang masaya ka pa na wala ako dito?" he shouted. Tahimik lang ang lahat and even I.

Never in my mind that I felt happy knowing that he was suffering. I always ask God to bring my father back to me because I love him so much and because I need a father to guide me.

"Hiwalayan mo ang lalaking yun at bumalik ka sa bahay na ito." he shouted. Kahit pagtulo ng luha ko ay hindi ko magawa. I was like a statue stuck where I was standing.

"Papa..." kuya tried to speak up.

"You shut up. You even let your sister be out of her mind." he cut my brother off by shouting so loud that the neighbor can hear his roars.

Can someone wake me up in this bad dream. Umm, I really need to wake up. This is really a nightmare.

"You go to your room now. From now on you are grounded. No gadgets." he commanded but I didn't move.

Buong gabi hindi ako makatulog. Wala akong cellphone to call him. The surroundings of my room is full of CCTV. Hindi ko na alam kung ano ang dapat kong gawin. Iyak lang ako ng iyak.

"Fuck." iyak ko. Lumabas naman ako sa may veranda.

Alam kong nag-aalala na si Aki pero anong sasabihin ko bukas? Parang hindi ko pa kaya. I need some time to think. Bakit naman kasi biglaan?

Pumasok din ako ng nahiga. Pinilit kong matulog kasi sobrang sakit ng puso ko. Ramdam na ramdam ko ang pagod.

I was standing in front of our house pero sobrang dilim sa loob kaya dahan-dahan akong pumasok. I turn on the light when I open the door but it didn't open. I used my phone as a light but as I did that someone pointed a gun on me. I can't see his face but....

Nagising ako at biglang napa-upo. I was sweating so bad too. The eye tattoo in his collarbone. I look around my room. Memories of that night when I was attacked, crashed my mind.

Flashback:

I was running upstairs when he pulled my right foot. I lose my balance and luckily my head didn't hit in any hard object. Sinipa ko naman siya kaya naman nawala ang kapit niya sa paa ko. I immediately crawl upstairs. Naabutan niya ako and he pinned me in the wall and he was about to stab me with knife nang salagin ko yun gamit ang kamay ko.

"You're a fucking monster." sigaw ko habang pumapalag. Nahawakan ko din ang collar niya at nakita ko doon ang tattoo niya. It was the same as the person who was standing outside papa's hospital room.

Mabilis ko namang sinipa ang gitnang bahagi niya dahilan para mapaluhod siya kaya agad akong tumakbo patungo sa kwarto ko.

End of flashback.

Isang week ko ng hindi nakikita si Aki. I actually don't know what to do. Gabi-gabi akong umiiyak and I always pray that Aki was just fine. Papunta ako ngayon sa condo niya para kunin ang mga gamit ko. I need to face him now tell him that we can't be together because it just doesn't work.May card key naman ako kaya nakapasok agad ako. Pagkapasok ko ay magulo ang unit niya, dati naman hindi ganito. I even saw cans of beer and bottles of liquor scattered in the floor. It pains me a lot but I just can't stay. I love my father so much and I can't disobey him. I love Aki that much but circumstances happen. And this sucks.