High School sucks (Frikey)

The End.

[This might be the end of this book, I will work on the second book when I have more time. School is just around the corner and I have a bit of time to write.]

Mikey

My head hurt when I woke up because I cried a lot last night.

I told Frank to leave... that was my only chance, but it'd never happen anyways.

I massaged both the temples of my head until I heard gentle knocks on my door.
I leaned back on my headboard and sighed as Gerards head slowly appeared from the small opening.

I looked away as I heard Gerards light footsteps, feeling the side of my bed dip from his added weight then it was his turn to sigh.

"Mikey..." he started softly.

I choked in a breath when he held my hand, rubbing the back of it.
My ears started to sting and blurring my vision of light entering my room and the swaying trees.
Then I finally turned my head to face my only family.

Gerard gasped, probably because of how I look.

"Mikey..." he tried to look for words, but couldn't.

I couldn't take it anymore. I buried my face into Gerards chest, hot tears soaking his shirt, clutching onto his shirt, sobbing. I kept on murmuring,

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry..." over and over again, feeling Gerards arm wrap around me and a hand stroking my hair.

"Shh... Mikey, it's alright." He softly spoke into my hair.

"Mikey, tell me what's wrong. Please. I wanna help you. If it's me, tell me, I'll do everything I can to make you better. Just please tell me." He begged.

Now he sounded like he was gonna cry, hugging me tighter and closer to me, he kept rubbing my back in soothing circles.

I spoke up a few minutes later, taking a deep breath, inhaling the cigarettes and coffee from his shirt and looked up at him seeing that he didn't get much sleep because of the dark circles under his eyes.

"I have no purpose here, I'm nothing... Our parents made that clear... Beat me senseless, made me realize that the world is dark and cruel, that it's pointless... Ever since I entered high school everyone has treated me like I was a nobody or a deadly disease because they somehow found out I was gay. And Frank," I stopped when I said his name and looked to Gerard, seeing that his eyes were tearing up, and I could feel his hand clenching mine.

"He-... I fell in love with him... It's so stupid... I am a victim from his bullying buddies and shit, and I'm in love with him." I half laughed.

"I always question myself, How can Frank love you?"
"You're a nobody, you're ugly, worthless, and an emo faggot. Everybody in school tells me to go kill myself ane no one would care, I think that's true." I said harshly.

Saying all of those made my chest tighter and made me catch my breath, so I looked to Gerard.

"Mikey... if you killed yourself, it would mean I failed my duties as a big brother. I would never forgive myself. You're my lifetime best friend, Mikey. Don't ever forget that," he shook my shoulder.

"Don't follow what people say, don't care about what they say. Fuck them. Everything they say about you is fucking wrong because I know that for fucking sure. Mom and dad are wrong because they don't understand you, they took out the child inside of you, they took away your happiness and you of all people don't deserve that. You are too kind, gentle, loving and beautiful, Mikey. Nobody should feel sad, especially you. You are beautiful for this ugly world. I will always be there for you. I promise. I promise, I will be a better brother, and... I promise I will try to stop drinking, because I need to be strong for you too. I will stop drinking, if you stop feeling so sad, but... do you want help with that?" He said genuinely, but in question in the end.

Hearing him say he will try to stop drinking made my eyes look up to him, taking in everything he just said made my eyes tear up again, trying to hold back a sob. His eyes full of concern piercing mine.

Go ask for help, follow Gerards words. He said he'll stop drinking if you get help.

I slowly nodded my head and a small grin appeared on his lips, bringing me closer to him and hugging me tightly in his warm body.

The doorbell rang.

Gerard quickly rubbed my back and mumbled he would get it after laying me back down and kissing my forehead.

I heard Gerards footsteps fading away and I sighed looking at my ceiling and turned to my side facing the door, and I looked to the window.

My door creaked a bit and I heard soft footsteps. Gerard...

I felt a warm hand on my shoulder, making me turn to face the person.

My breath hitched in my throat to see who it was.

His eyes gazing into mine again, making me feel weak.

Frank.

[Okay guyzz this is the end of the first book. I will work on the second when i can, but i am also working on another one title Heavy Burdens for RivaMika.
Hope you enjoyed this :)]

Catch up again, loves :*