⇾𝐖𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐨𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐚 𝐠𝐫𝐞𝐲 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐥𝐝, 𝐬𝐥𝐨𝐰𝐥𝐲 𝐬𝐚𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐨 𝐛𝐞𝐚𝐮𝐭𝐢𝐟𝐮𝐥 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐛𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐜𝐨𝐥𝐨𝐫𝐬 ∙⋄♡⋄∙ A poor girl that sees no point in living meets a young boy who helps her discover her reason to keep...
I sighed as I walked to school with a heavy backpack making me walk even slower. Apart from already being late because, well, because, my back was now hurting too.
As usual, every time a car drove by me, I could only think about what would happen if I jumped in front of it and got hit. But of course, I wouldn't do it cause for the hundredth time that would just be embarrassing. Like, imagine if I survive it and then have to remember laying down on the ground, people surrounding me and then being dragged away by some hospital people. Like, no.
Anyways, after a while of walking to school, I missed first period, not like I liked it anyways, I had math.
I enter the school and there are students in the hallways since it was the 15 minute pause in between classes. So I only hoped that a teacher wouldn't catch me and make me explain myself as to why I was late. Happened way too many times before and I'm sure we're all tired of it. Me and the teachers of course.
As I walked to my locker, unnoticed by anyone as usual, well, guess I lied, I did get noticed by someone, my fist thought, kill myself. Second thought, maybe I shouldn't, it would be too embarrassing to kill myself in front of so many students. Oh, I forgot to tell you who noticed me.
Well, it was no one other than Kazuha, the exact guy i was thinking about earlier. Weird no? Well, to me it is because I find it abnormal for someone to notice me and want to talk to me. I still can't understand how that's normal.
"Hey, how are you today." He smiled so sweetly to me.
No way, he likes me. I mean, why would anyone talk to me if I wasn't interesting to them? So him liking me is the only reason, right? Okay, maybe not... It's not like I can convince myself that he just wants to be my friend anyways.
I stared at him blankly as I didn't feel like talking. Like you know when you just can't open your mouth and speak and you just respond to them in your head? Is that just me?
I turned my back to him and towards my locker as I looked into it and hoped to find something I can occupy myself with. So I reached my hands into my locker and pretended to look for my books in it.
"You not going to speak to me? That's alright, perhaps you're not in the mood for simple chatter." He said in the most soothing and gentle voice in the entire world.
Why was he being so nice to me? Maybe he pitied me? But that wasn't so bad, I was glad that someone finally noticed and decided to be nice to me. I felt warm, but the feeling suddenly washed away as I could only feel nothing once he walked away to go to class since the break was almost over.
I sighed as I felt disappointed in myself, I really should have said something to him. Maybe if there's a next time... Only if he didn't give up on me. I only wished he didn't.
Hold on, why did I wish for him to not stop talking to me? Was I really that desperate? Did I even deserve someone to spend their time with me? Am I even worth someone's time?
A wave of sadness and emptiness hit me as I closed my lockers, and walked to my class were everyone was already seated but the class hadn't started yet. Only a few seconds were left until the bell rung, I walked into the class as people started to look at me and I felt intimidated by their stares. How embarrassing.
I walked to my spot in the back of the class in shame and embarrassment, as if a zebra being stared by a pack of hyena's ready to attack their prey.
Thankfully they hadn't attacked me though. Thank god I'm not a zebra. I mean, maybe it wouldn't be that bad? I would die earlier, but would also die in an embarrassing way... Okay nevermind. I'm glad I'm not a zebra.
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School was finally over and I could finally breath without stressing over embarrassing myself in class. Maybe I said the word embarrassing too many times.... Oh well.
I got to my locker to put my books back and leave, until Kazuha came up to me and tapped me lightly on the shoulder.
"Hey? Feel like talking now?" He asked me with a cute smile.
"Yeah." I respond with the most hoarse voice ever as I hadn't talk the whole day. I frowned in embarrassment as he simply chuckled softly.
"Don't have to be so flustered, I find your voice quite cute." He continued to smile gently at me. He had his backpack on and he looked ready to go, class had only finished a minute ago. He was either really fast at packing his things, or maybe he'd rushed just to talk to me? Yeah no way.
"Do you want to go somewhere?" He asked me as his faced relaxed and he looked both excited and anticipating my response with patients.
I looked at him in confusion and surprise as he looked genuine. He wasn't joking.
"Uh, yes?" I responded dumbfounded, as I hadn't really thought this through.
"Great! How about we go to a cafe?" He suggested. He looked so bright, it's like I had completely forgot it wasn't just us inside the school surrounding me.
"Ok." I hated how dry I was being, but I didn't have the energy or courage to say more. But it didn't seem like he minded it at all. He just looked glad that I was even speaking with him. For some reason, he made me feel as if he was the one that was honored to speak with me.
I put my bag on and remembered how heavy it was as I crouched slightly so I could be able to support the weight. He looked at me for a second and took off his own backpack. I looked at him curiously as he handed me his bag.
"Give me your bag, mine isn't that heavy." He smiled at me and it made my heart flutter. I was definitely way to desperate. I literally fell for the only person that showed me kindness. How amazing is that.
I hesitated to actually switch bags, but my back was hurting and I was definitely much weaker than he was, so maybe he was going to be able to hold my bag with ease. I took off my backpack and handed it over to him as I took his bag. He was right, his bag was definitely much lighter, he clearly wasn't holding rocks in his bag like I was.
He put my backpack on and smiled at me as we walked out the school and towards...somewhere. I don't know, I don't really go outside so I had no clue where we were going. Hopefully he wasn't going to kidnap me. I mean like, I wouldn't complain if he did.... okay I'll stop.
