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I lay in bed as I had a great day over at Kazuha's place. I kinda got used to the house and I definitely felt much more comfortable now. Having lively people that aren't my family members was comforting cause they were a million times kinder and just better. It made me wonder if I really wanted to keep living. I mean, it would be great to hang out some more with them, I guess you could say it would be fun, but I also just wouldn't mind dying.

I'm in no rush to die, I just don't care if I get hit by a meteorite right now.

I stare at my ceiling as I think of the many ways I could kill myself in this room. Why? I don't know, I'd probably use none of the techniques I think of anyways.

It had gotten dark outside and Kazuha was preparing to sleep.

I didn't really feel like resting and I also realized that since I almost didn't bring anything with me, I didn't have extra clothes, so no pj's to change into. I wasn't really sure if I could ask for some, cause I didn't want to seem unproper and sleep in the clothes I had on right now, plus, I didn't have clothes for tomorrow either.

Solution? Kill myself. Easy.

Okay, fine, I won't. I'm sure they had already realized I had nothing with me but snacks cause that's what's most important in life.

I heard a knock on my door and before I could say anything the door swung wide open with a smiling long brown haired woman walking in with clothing in her hands.

"Y/n! I brought you pj's! Hope you like em, they're mine." She winks at me as she throws them to me and I clumsily catch them. Since she was definitely older than me, the clothes seemed in a bigger size. For some reason, she stood in front of me as she stared into my soul with a large smile as if expecting me to change right in front of her.

She didn't seem like she would leave anytime soon since she stood still and stared into me with her beautiful eyes. I wanted to ask her to leave so I could change, but I thought it would be too mean so I said nothing. Now I was considering whether I should actually change in front of her or not.

Her smile then grew wider as she started to laugh. I looked at her cluelessly as I was extremely confused now.

"Did you really think I'd want to watch you change?? Hahahaha!!! I'm not a pervert!! I'll leave the room so you can change in peace, kiddo. But I will come in once you're done, I wanna see my clothes on yah!" She continues to laugh to herself as she exits my room as I stare at her blankly as she does so. Now I just felt awkward and couldn't help but blush in embarrassment.

I hold the pj's up so I can see them and they didn't look so bad, except they were a bit revealing.

I hold the pj's up so I can see them and they didn't look so bad, except they were a bit revealing

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I mean, the pj's were enough, I should just be thankful for them.

I then realized that now my self-harm scars were visible to everyone, I wasn't really sure if I should cover them or just leave it be and pray she doesn't say anything about them.

So I decide to do nothing and pray she doesn't mention them.

She knocks once more and opens the door, not even asking if I had finished dressing. I didn't really know how to react to that so I just stared blankly into her.

"Aren't you a hottie in my clothes. Now I understand how you got Kazuha to be head over heels for you." She smirks delighted to see me, but I just stare at her with a dumbfounded look.

A blush crawls onto my cheeks as Beidou gets closer to me and then wraps her arm around my shoulders as she starts to pull me towards the direction she is now walking, which is out of my room.

I didn't know what to do and I didn't feel like pulling back, so I let her lead me out. I had no clue what she was doing, and at this point, if it was Beidou, I didn't really care, I trusted her more than my own family, plus, you could say I'm easy to manipulate since I'm quite vulnerable, and yes I am self-aware of this.

"Kazuha's gonna love seeing you look this cute." She giggles to herself and it sends my cheeks another wave of red color. Honestly, I was just scared now, but I wasn't going to fight back either.

She brought me into an open space that had a couch and TV as well as a piano and a flute placed on top. Kazuha was sitting down on the couch watching the screen. I felt shy now as Beidou brought me all the way to the couch and then walked in front of the TV to block the cream haired boys vision.

Kazuha's eyes laid on Beidou and then onto me as a soft pink color slowly appeared on his cheeks as he smiled warmly at me.

"Doesn't she look so cute!???" Beidou fangirls as she let's go of me and stands beside me as if I was now being auctioned off to the boy sitting in front of me.

"Uh, yeah, you look dashing." Kazuha muttered to himself as Beidou continued to fangirl.

"Huh?? That's all you gotta say??? Isn't this the same girl you were complimenting so much last nigh-" Beidou got interrupted from finishing by a hand that held over her mouth.

"Beidou...please..." The boy was blushing like crazy as I couldn't help but just die of embarrassment now. I felt like I was in heaven, I have never experienced this and it felt great to do so. It felt unreal, but I was happy. I was actually happy.

The tough lady brushed her brother's hand away from her and turned towards me with a large smile.

"Why don't you go rest now. You had a tough day today. Kazuha has seen enough of your cuteness, he can see some more tomorrow too or in his dreams. Now out you go." She shoos me away as I comply and bow to her slightly before slightly covering my mouth in embarrassment with my hand and walking away to my room.

I can't lie, Beidou is helping our relationship so much, I loved how supportive she was. She's just amazing.

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A/n: Writing is so much fun cause I have the liberty to write anything I want >:)

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