Lilly X Carl Grimes

Promises and dead ends Pt. 10

Word Count: 714

Im sitting in me and carls tent reading a book i grabed from the CDC, the outsiders. I'm a little more than half way through.

Carls still inside, resting. I think when he wakes up i'll tell him about the book. Or maybe even read it with him.

I walk past hershel and Rick to go inside and see how Carl is doing. They're talking about something important i can tell. "This is just temporary, so after you find that little girl, and your boy is ok, you need to leave. But while you here i need you to know that i don't want any guns floating around on my property," he says making a odd face towards Rick.

I don't understand why his face was supposed to mean. I hate it when adults make faces or noises that I don't understand, It's frustrating.

I keep walking and slightly touch my side to make sure my gun is still in the band of my pants. I'm not giving this up, it was Marcus' and he told me to never let my guard down. So that's exactly what i won't do.

I walk up the steps and into the house, lots of people walking around, Beth is doing dishes, Maggie is doing laundry, Glenn's helping her.

Some of the time I can tell what adults mean by little comments, faces, or noises. Like now, Maggie and Glenn went out for a supplies run and since then, they've been acting weird. I think they like each other, i'm not completely sure.

I knock on the door to Carls room and wait, "Come in".

I walk in and Carls laying in bed. Smiling at me as i come in. I sit in the chair next to his bed. "How bad does it hurt?"

"Pretty bad, but hershel says i'll make it"

We sit there and talk, i keep him company so he isn't all alone. We talk about more things that we miss from before the apocalypse.

"I miss all the junk food, like chips and candy, now all we eat is whatever Daryl catches, and squirrel doesn't taste the best," he says.

We laugh and he starts quieting down, "Why hasn't Sophia came in here yet?"

Shit, i told him that she came back, i didn't want to worry him more. Oh god what do i say.

"Carl i'm sorry, nobody found her yet, i lied i didn't want to stress you out more".

He lays there, doesn't look at me, just stares out the window. "Just promise me that you won't run off, ever," he says.

"I promise," i say nodding.

Rick gave Carl his hat, I think he was just trying to make him feel a bit better. The hat suits him.

We keep talking, soon enough Rick comes in to check in on Carl. He leaves after a minute or two and i remember what him and hershel were talking about outside, the guns.

Would Carl get mad at me if he found out i had one? I think Rick would be a little mad, Lori too. I'm not going to tell them, I can't risk them taking it.

There's still no luck on finding Sophia, T-dog and Dale are still at the highway, waiting there just incase she makes her way back. I don't think we're going to find her.

Sophia's nice, but she's weak. She's 12, and Carol has always protected her. So I don't think she stood a chance in this world. I just hope she isn't in pain.

The search for her has just brought us to a bunch of dead ends. Quiet literally dead, Rick, Shane, and Daryl keep running into walkers. And since hershel took our guns away we can't kill them.

He believes that the walkers are still people. They're not, we saw that at the CDC and how Jenner said that the you part of the brain is dead when you become a walker.

I can't help but wonder what he does with the walkers if he doesn't kill them. But again that's "adult stuff".

It starts getting late so i say goodbye to Carl and as I head for the door he says, "Remember what you promised me".

"I will"