Unkissed. (Rated R)

20.👑

Each droplet of rain that fell from the sky were like shards of crystals to my cold skin, the horizon around me damped and muddy as I wait for the twelfth day hoping he would return.

A longing wish that fades away every second his face isn't visible. A breeze rushed through me and I shivered before coughing thickly, a grave sound of thick phlegm spews in my chest as I am sitting underneath the pouring rain, water streaming down the tight curly strands of my hair.

This was soon going to be detrimental to my health and a burden to my father when he sees I am too sick.

Perhaps this way was best, this surrounding synchronizes perfectly to the emotion inside me.

He wasn't coming.

No matter how many days I sit and wait, hours and hours go by and stare at the other side of the town, or to look up to the tree or scour all throughout the forest around me hoping it was one of his games.

But in the end, he was nowhere to be found, I even swore at times I could hear his faint laughter. My chest aches every day since our last encounter, I wish I knew what went wrong, what did I do to cause him to stay away? And how could I fix it so he would return to me.

We made a promise.

A fast wind blew through my face and I find myself coughing once again before sniffling thickly.

Sitting in my gown in the mud; my knees to my chest. I look out to the damped horizon, those puddles are soon to be a temporary home to toads and frogs, creatures I was once terrified to look at but now look forward to touching them again.

Nasir Omar, everywhere he went the sunlight just follows him, no matter what he touched it blooms to life, a pure star that walks the earth; Deep umber color of his skin, the raven loose curly strands of his head, and a heart made of gold, he can light any darkness and he lights up mine without even trying.

I never felt like I deserved him as a friend, he was always open and gentle, whereas I harbor dark secrets.

I fight back the tears but in the end the emotion of missing him triumphed over my strong girl armor and I roar in pain with the sky, angry at myself. I should have tried to understand him more, I should have done better at not being afraid but instead yet again I cower away from the smallest things.

Why haven't I broken from this shell?

Nasir is a warrior hidden within his small frame, I saw it everyday when we played together out in the field, the shadow he emanated on the ground was a mighty man full of power. I don't think I can stand to look at mine, especially not after everything I have done.

Sloshes of shoes squish on the ground next to me, a warming body heat enveloping around as it approaches until black leather dress shoes come into view. Discreetly rising my head up from my folded arms, the feel of the rain disperses to now falling around me.

"Princess," the butler says softly. "Please rise, you will fall Ill."

I shrug from his concerns purposefully ignoring his presence and return to my brooding.

He then crouched next to me, pushing the umbrella above my frame wholly, "There is no point in you doing this Patrick, I am already soaked. Please let me be." My annoyance at him is evident.

"I know you are still upset your majesty, but please come back in the castle, I'll have Eileen cook you up your favorites?"

My jaw ticks at the formality, "What I need you to do is take me to that town so I can know if he is ok Patrick," I roar looking up to his eyes, his sorrowful orbs look back at me, "Why can't you do only that? you had him in your carriage a few weeks ago, why can't you do it again?"