What If I can't forget you? (A Kellic Fanfiction)

Chapter four. (A Kellin Fanfiction)

I took one last sharp intake of breath, before leaning forward slightly over the railings. My heartbeat was so loud it was drowning the sound of everything else out.

Go, do it. It whispered once more. I spread my arms out either side of me, closing my eyes, leaning my head back, before letting my weight fall forward.

My body was falling for what seemed like forever. A white light flashed bright before my eyes just before I was going to hit the ground.

Smack.

I opened my eyes wide, taking in a huge gasp of air; I was so confused and disorientated. It took a couple of seconds for my vision to focus. Until I realised, Vic was holding on to my arm with all of his strength. I look down. If I moved just an inch, I would fall to what would most likely be my death.

"Kellin!" I could hear faintly over the sound of the adrenaline rushing through my ears. "Kellin what are you doing!?" I could hear a little better. I could make out it was Vic, he was sobbing whilst holding onto me, pulling me into his arms. I was still shaken up... I thought I had just died.

I could just about manage to bury my face into his neck, which comforted me completely. He was holding me so tight and I could hear him sobbing and murmuring gentle words into my ear.

Vic had dragged me back into his apartment, and layed me on his bed. He was sitting beside me, stroking the hair out of my eyes. I hadn't said anything yet, and it felt like I had been laying here forever.

His face was red and puffy from where he had been crying, and he whispered softly to me, "Why, Kell?"

I looked into his eyes for a while, biting my lip. His eyes were like the windows to his soul, and he looked so sad. Those child-like eyes that I had seen lit up the very same day now seemed dull and depressed.

"I-" I started, and chocked a little, "I hurt people too much."

He shook his head gently, "No, it was just a shock. If I knew you would have done that then I wouldn't have been so selfish and reacted like tha-"

"You weren't being selfish, Vic. I was." I butted in, "Don't blame yourself, because it's my fault. I'm not just saying that because I don't want you feeling bad, I'm saying it because it's true. I've made so many fuck ups this past year, and I actually thought being with Katelynne made me happy. But being with you, that was a completely different feeling." I sat up slightly, leaning on the wall of the bed, "And I mean it. From the moment I saw you, something clicked in my head, and it was so weird. I had this, this force towards you. Like a magnet, I just didn't want to be away from you. And it's so fucked up because I haven't known you for that long, at all and yet I feel like this and I feel like it's going to break everyone apart if they find out."

He took in everything I had said and his eyes began to water again, "The thing is, I feel exactly the same." His voice was croaky and broken, "But I don't want to be second best, Kellin."

I took his hand gently, and laced my fingers with his, "And you aren't. And I'm sorry. I hate to see you cry because of me. Your eyes show so much emotion and I can see how much this is hurting and confusing you."

Vic squeezed my hand gently, leaning forward to kiss my head, "Everything will sort itself out, and I know it will. Good things happen to good people, and you're not a bad person Kellin, remember that. Promise me you'll never do something like this again?"

My eyes travelled down and I nodded faintly,

"Please, Kellin?"

Looking back up at him, I leaned forward and placed one gentle kiss on his lips, murmuring, "I promise, Vic. You mean everything to me now."

I paused, and leaned my forehead against his, "If I were to die, I would be without you. And I could never call a place heaven, if I never got to kiss your lips again."

Sorry for the seriously short chapter, I am pretty busy at the moment and felt like I had to continue from the cliff-hanger, but I promise to update soon! Do you like how I ended that? I think it was sweet. c:

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