What If I can't forget you? (A Kellic Fanfiction)

Chapter five. (A Kellic Fanfiction)

(VIC'S POV.)

I was standing on the balcony of my flat. It was around 3 in the afternoon, and the slight breeze was dancing with the warmth of the sun. Kellin had fallen asleep, bless him. He was so tired and stressed... And I can't even comprehend how awful I felt after he nearly took his own life. Imagine that. I'd never fallen in love with someone so quickly and intensley before. In fact, I don't even think I've ever fallen in love before, not like this anyway, this was different. My head was killing me, I really had no idea what to feel. Do I forgive him? After all, he's with someone. He kissed me, and I just don't know how to feel anymore. I love him, a lot more than he realises, but at the same time I don't know whether to trust him or not. What if he's lying? Or, this is all just some sick joke? Or what if-

Shut up Vic. He's not like that.
He nearly killed himself for fuck sake, this isn't a joke.

I leaned on the railings, closing my eyes and feeling the warm sunshine across my face. I glanced behind me, looking through the glass doors to see Kellin still sleeping soundly on my bed. I smiled a little, looking back out to the city. What a day it had been. It was a mixture of going incredibly fast, painfully slow, and a huge blur of confusion thrown in, also.

After a little while of standing on my balcony, I walked back inside carefully, so I didn't wake Kellin, and cautiously shut the door behind me. I strolled into my small kitchen and picked up my phone from the counter. I had a text from Mike. It read;
'Hey man, where are you? Mom's made a surprise visit and she's making her amazing homemade burritos haha'
It made me release a small bubble of laughter. Oh mom, how very Mexican of you. I do miss my parents, I haven't seen them in a really long time, since me and the rest of the guys have been touring.
Then it kinda hit me. How would everyone react if they found out about me and Kellin?
Ah, shit.
I can't even begin to imagine. I mean, mom and dad would probably be okay with it. They've always been really loving with me and they would love me no matter what.
The band would all be in complete shock. I think it would come as a great surprise to them.
Especially Mike... I don't think he would like it if he found out that his brother likes guys. I don't even fucking know anymore. Do I like guys? Do I like girls? I've always had a thing for guys, obviously. But, girls are gorgeous. Their defined bodies, their voices, even their smell...
Sigh. Why do I have to be so confusing.
And I really do overthink things.

I shook my head, placing my phone back down without replying, and walked into my living room. Closing the door, I picked up my guitar that was leaning against the wall and sat down on the couch.
I plucked the strings gently with my fingers, closing my eyes, I quietly sang to myself;

Burned out,
It gets you down,
We've all been there sometimes,
But tonight I'll make you feel beautiful once again,

And as the sun went down we ended up on the ground,
I heard the train shake the windows,
You screamed over the sound,
And as we own this night,
I put your body to the test with mine,
This love was out of control,
3-2-1 where did it go?

If I were you, I'd put that away,
See, you're just wasted,
And thinking about the past again,
Darling you'll be okay.

"That was beautiful." Kellin's voice made me jump a little, but I turned to smile at him. He looked tired, stressed, and lost. His eyes were red and dull but you could tell that the really meant the smile he was gently wearing. I put my guitar down, and stood up to walk over him. I run my hands slightly up his chest and look up at him, letting out a small sigh.
"Sorry for falling asleep." His voice was low and soft, and had his head tilted a little, keeping his hands to his sides.
"It's fine, really. I'm glad you got some rest." I glanced down and back up to look at him. His eyes were holding a strong gaze into mine, and he was chewing the inside of his mouth in thought. Even though he was deep in thought, he did seem pretty vacant. I think he had a huge mixture of emotions, and wasn't sure how to deal with them.
"Vic I need to ask you something serious."
I paused and nodded, "Okay, shoot?"
Kellin sighed and stretched out his neck, before sighing and looking straight at me again. My hands were still on his chest and I was just waiting for him to speak.
"Would it be better if we never spoke again? Because I'm leaving the decision to you, now. Should I stay with you? Or should I leave, and we pretend that any of this ever happened?"
I suppose I should have been shocked, but surprisingly, I wasn't. I knew where he was coming from and I could understand his knowlege. I could see the positives and negatives of him staying, or leaving.
I looked down and thought about it for a long time, before Kellin put his finger on the tip of my chin and tilted my face up to look at him, "Vic, you don't have to make a decision here and now. Why don't you sleep on it, and then get back to me later?"
I nodded, "But Kellin, what do you want?" I tensed my eyebrows in confusion.
"I just want your happiness. It's paramount." He smiled, kissing my forehead softly, "But I have to go."
I nodded slightly and placed my head against his chest, as he squeezed me gently, before letting go and nodding, picking up his keys and walking out of my apartment.

And just in that moment, I found myself humming under my breath;
"They say that love is forever, your forver is all that I need,
Please stay,
Forever with me."

 

I hope this chapter was okay, but as it was from Vic's POV, it was only short again. D:
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