Past Love / English Version

To gain confidence

At 3 o'clock I woke up, like every night, but this time I wasn't alone. I looked into the eyes of Chan, who was also awake. I quietly got up and opened the patio door and went outside. Chan followed me quietly and we sat down together on the meadow, because it was a warm, pleasant night.

"Somehow strange that we both woke up together, don't you think?" Chan asked after a short time and I nodded in agreement. "For me, it's always because of the same dream. What was the reason for you?" I asked and looked at Chan. "For me, it's always because of a dream. What kind of one do you have, if I may ask?" He asked and looked deep into my eyes.

"I have had this dream for years that I am in a different time and I see a couple of lovers who are not allowed to love each other because they come from different homes. Always before I can recognize the other person who is there with me, I wake up at the same time," I said. "Mhm, it's the same with me. So we have the same dream," he said and I could see that he was thinking.

Meanwhile, I looked into the sky and watched the stars that were brighter today than usual, which made me smile. Suddenly Chan put a blanket over me and lay down next to me to look at the stars with me.

I didn't even notice that he had gotten up and got the blanket.

"What do you think about talking to Han and Felix about our same dreams tomorrow? Because it must have a meaning, or what do you think?" Chan asked and looked at me now. I could only agree with my head, because his eyes captivated me. This eye contact was so intense and yet I felt safe with him. With his right hand, he brushed a strand of hair out of my face and my skin tingled when his finger touched my skin.

"I don't know what it is, Jasmin, but I feel like I recognize myself in you. Somehow there is a connection between us and it feels strange, but still good," said Chan after some time of eye contact. I had to sit down because my heart was beating so fast. What did I feel right now?

"I know Channie, because I feel it too, but I'm still afraid. I have lost all the people who have ever meant anything to me. At some point, my soul can't stand it anymore," I said and didn't notice that the tears were running down my face, but Chan saw it immediately. He took me in his arms and pressed me to himself.

"I don't know what you've had to go through, but you should know that we will all always be there for you, because I know that you have already become very important to everyone. Especially Han, Lixie, Hyunjin and everyone else as well, Jasmin. I feel this connection between you and me and I can say that I need you in my life," he said and looked me in the eyes. He gently brushed away my tears with his thumbs.

"I know you're scared, Jasmin, but I'm here listening to you. Tell me about your life, your worries and fears. I don't go back to sleep so quickly and neither do you," Chan said with a smile and I summed up my courage and began to tell.

Story Jasmin

Until I was 6 years old, I had a perfect family life. My parents had a company that had been going very well for years and they made good money with it to offer me and my little sisters Susi and Lina a good life. Until the night a fire changed everything. Around 3 o'clock at night I woke up because I noticed a pungent smell that took my breath away. Instinctively, I put my sleeve from my pajamas over my nose and mouth and so I ran out of the room. Then I saw what was going on.

Flames could be seen everywhere, the lower floor was complete in flames and the fire protection system had not triggered for some reason. I screamed for my sisters and my parents, but I could see that the part where they were sleeping was completely on fire. I felt that they were no longer alive, but I didn't want to die yet and I wanted to get out of this house. I quickly ran back to my room and ran to the window and could see that the fire brigade had already started the extinguishing work.

I opened the window and screamed for help, but that was a mistake. The fire was now in my room, because the oxygen I had let in gave the fire the strength to continue growing. Parts of the blanket fell to the ground and the fire reached me and I screamed in pain. The last way out of surviving this was the open window. So I gathered all my courage and jumped out of the window.

In the hospital, I woke up in severe pain. I had bandages all over my legs and back. My grandparents were with me because I knew that my family was dead. Years of operations, therapies and the love of my grandparents helped me to heal. I never really had friends, actually none, until I met Han and Felix in an online game at the age of 13.

They were always there for me, even when my grandparents died in a car accident. Han once helped me from a distance with a panic attack that I got because some hacker had called me, with my mother's name on the screen. I could always rely 100% on Han and Felix, but I am very afraid of losing them as much as my family.

Story Jasmin, end.