Past Love / English Version

Jealousy and panic attack

When we arrived at the new location, there were a lot of fans of SKZ and it was extremely noisy. We translators held back for the time being, as the fan meeting only starts after 3 songs and a short break. I have never seen so many people behind the scenes. Stylists for clothing, hairdresser and make-up, simply insane to see and experience all this.

When SKZ came to the back, they were made "fresh" again and they went to their places and we translators and other employees where behind them. Everything went really well until I heard Seungmin complain softly. Since I was done with Chan and Han, I went to Seungmin. "What's going on, Minnie?" I asked quietly. "Jasmin, the translator is a disaster, please help me. PLEASE," he said, looking at me with his puppy eyes. I smiled and agreed. My colleague wasn't thrilled, but I didn't care, because Seungmin wanted my help.

Seungmin was happy when I translated the questions clearly into English and I gave his answer in German. The fans were also much happier now, as the translation now worked much better. In the corner of my eye, I could see that the translator was getting more and more angry, but I focused on the last fan of Seungmin.

When we were done, we went back and Seungmin smiled at me. The manager approached Seungmin and me and asked us what was going on, and Seungmin explained everything to him. His translator had tried to translate, but he preferred to flirt with the fans of SKZ, which made Seungmin angry, because the translator forgot his job.

"Thank you for helping out, Jasmin, I really appreciate that, because actually you only had Han and Chan. Thank you," he said. "I was happy to do that. I heard that Minnie was not happy and was happy to help him," I said smiling and Seungmin gave me a radiant smile, the manager also smiled and went back to the others. Johanna came to me and Seungmin and together we talked something about the fan meeting.

A short time later, IN, Changbin and Lino were also finished and they came back with the translators.

One off the translators pulled me rudely by my arm to the side. "What the shit was that supposed to be? Are you so keen on the members that you dispute the job of others, you stupid little bitch," he said and got louder and louder so that SKZ could hear it well. "Tell me, are you actually crazy? I did your damn job, but you wanted to flirt rather than work! Never talk so derogatory about my friends again, you horny sack!" I said angrily and recognized the anger in his eyes.

He raised his arm and pulled out. I was preparing for the blow, but it didn't come. I had closed my eyes and as I opened them carefully, I now saw Felix and Chan standing next to me. Chan had the translator's arm in his hand and looked at him badly. "You dare to raise your hand against a woman? How pathetic are you? You are fired and without notice," Chan shouted at him, while Felix pushed me out of the situation, because he knew how I was doing.

My breathing went far too fast and also my heart was far too fast, that I thought it would jump out of me at any moment. From a distance I heard Felix calling for Han, even though Felix stood right in front of me. Felix held my hand and then I felt and heard Han. "Jasmin, listen to my voice. Try to focus on me, please!" He said and I tried to focus on him and looked in his eyes.

"Good, Jasmin, very good. Now breathe in... and out again... and in again... and out again...", Han repeated it again and again and I was fixated on his voice. It took a while before my breathing and heartbeat calmed down, but Han had really helped me out of my panic attack. When I felt better, I looked up and met the worried eyes of Felix, Johanna and Chan. "Thank you, Hannie," I said and pressed him firmly against me and I had tears in my eyes.

"What's going on here?" asked the manager, but Chan moved aside to explain everything to him.

Han held me firmly against him and made me cry in his arms as he gently stroked my back. "I just wanted to help. Why does this always happen to me? What am I doing wrong, Hannie?" I asked quietly and Han immediately looked into my eyes. "Dear, you didn't do anything, absolutely nothing wrong. Minnie was so happy that you helped him and now he has a guilty conscience for asking you for help," Han said and I looked at him sadly.

"Where is he?" I asked and Han called for him. Seungmin also came immediately with his head down. "Hey Minnie, you didn't do anything wrong, but that other person did. I was very happy to help you because you are my friend, okay?" I said and slowly he raised his head and I saw a slight smile. I got up, went to him and hugged him tightly, and I felt that he was relaxing. When I looked into his eyes, he gave me a warm smile, which made me smile immediately.

When Chan came back, I ran into his arms and pressed him firmly against me. "Thank you. Thank you for everything,Oppa," I whispered, because I was so grateful to him that he had protected me. Chan drew me closer to him. "I was happy to do that, little one. No man should ever raise his hand against a woman, and when I saw that, I had to intervene. I would and will do that again and again, little one," he said and gently stroked my head. I enjoyed his closeness and when we broke up, I missed his closeness directly.

The manager approached me and gently pulled me aside. "How are you? Are you able to continue working, or do you need a break after the shock?" he asked and I realized that he was really worried. "It's okay. I hope you know that I just wanted to help Seungmin. I don't want to take the job away from anyone," I said and now the manager took me in his arms.

"I know that and everyone is so grateful to you that you helped Seungmin immediately and without hesitation. Actually, your job was over. I am grateful for having you and I hope that something like this will never happen again," he said and released the hug. He gave me an honest smile. "Thank you, that really means a lot to me," I said and now smiled slightly and we went back to the others together. When they saw my smile, they were relieved.