Everyday it's getting colder

Cry a river

I get picked up by Alessia and we get home. "Here's your phone" she says
"Wait really?" I ask
"Of course" she says
I get the phone and look at everything.

One thing puts me in shock.

Amelia

I hope you are fucking ashamed of yourself!
I fucking hate you! You deserved to be fought your a bitch,
You're a slag and a slut, I don't even have words for you anymore.
You'll never make a name for yourself you will always be
Someone's second choice! I hope your future partner cheats on you
And I hope you rot in hell! I hope you struggle to have kids, you'd ruin them!

I felt the tears fall down my face and I go upstairs.

The blade fell into the sink and I slouch down the wall crying. "Everything okay, you've been in there a while?" Alessia says knocking on the door. I flush the toilet and say "coming now"
I quickly throw my jumper on and put the blade into the back of my phone case, I walk out and Alessia says "everything okay?"
"Yeah sorry, just didn't feel good" I say
"Try and sleep early okay" Alessia says. I get into my bed and do as she says and go to sleep.

The next morning I wake up, with stomach cramps and headaches. I don't move, I couldn't. Alessia comes in and tries to wake me up. "No, less" I wince in pain. "I can't go" I say almost crying. "What's happened?" Alessia asks
"I'm in so much pain" I cry.
She lifts up my bed covers as I was apparently really hot. "You've started your period, don't worry about it. Come on I'll change the sheets" Alessia says
"I'm sorry Alessia" I say crying
"Don't worry, come on you can get yourself washed up and can go into my bed. I'll text Leah saying your not in" Alessia says
"Alright" I say walking into the bathroom slowly.

I try and do the best but I couldn't. I could barely move. I felt myself fall to the floor. "Shit! I'm coming!" I hear Alessia shout.
She runs over to me. "I can't do it less" I whisper
"I'm so weak" I add
"Hey it's okay. Let's sit here for a while, I'll go get you some painkillers" she says and quickly leaves.

She comes back with two tablets and a glass of water. "Thanks" I say and take them. "Come on, grab my hands and we will walk slowly to my room" Alessia says
"I can't less" I say
"You can, come on" she says and puts her hands out.

I try and stand up but I fall back down and I'm sick in the toilet.

I lean my head back against the wall. "I'll go get you some spare clothes and a towel" she says and leaves again.

She comes back in getting the items she said she would. "Hey it's okay, just let me help you" Alessia says. She goes to lift my jumper off. "No Alessia" I say
"Come on your boiling" she says. I didn't have the energy to fight back so I let her.

I saw her eyes tear up and the lump in her throat being swallowed. But she didn't say anything and for that I'm grateful.
She helps me change and carries me to her room. She lies me down in the bed and says "get some sleep" as she closes the curtains. "I'll bring your phone" she says and carries it in. "Is there anything you want to talk about?" She asks and I shake my head,

She leaves leaving the door open slightly. I hear her talking to Katie.

Alessia PoV

"Katie" I say as she answers the phone.
"Hey, what's up?" Her thick Irish accent answered
"Can you come round?" I ask
"Yeah" she says
"She's really really ill, and I was helping her get ready as she had thrown up all over her clothes. I took her jumper off and there were fresh scars. She's hurt herself when I'm meant to be looking out for her, it's all my fault" I cry
"It's not your fault Alessia, you didn't know. I promise I'll be there soon" Katie says
"Thanks" I say