Murderer

14

I thought Luke and I had something.  I thought we loved each other.  

I guess everything we said or did was a lie.  

How could he just get rid of me?  I should've known better.  

While sitting and thinking, I remembered I never went to the bathroom so I got up off the bed and made my way to Luke's bathroom in his room.  

As I walked in, I saw him standing in the corner with his back to me.  I stopped walking and just looked at him.  He was drinking from a whole bottle of vodka and he had beer bottles waiting to be drunk sitting on the tv stand.  He kept taking swigs from the vodka bottle and I couldn't watch any longer.  I shook my head and walked into the bathroom quietly without him even noticing I was in there. 

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When I was done, I opened the door to find Luke blocking my way.  He held the bottle of vodka in his left hand as he took a large swig.  

"What are you doing in my room?"  He slurred angrily.  

"I was just going to the bathroom."  I said scowling as I tried to walk out of the room, but he put a hand on my shoulder and pushed me up against thee wall.

He brought his lips close to mine; is breath smelling terribly of alcohol as his warm breath hit my face. 

I was pissed at Luke and had no tolerance for him.  

"Get off me," I said as I pressed my hands to his chest to try to push him away, but it was no use.  He pressed his body closer and harder to mine.  

"Or what babe."  He whispered against my neck.  

"I'm not your babe."  I said trying to get free.  

"Really?  Cause' I think you are."  He said as he pressed his lips to my neck and bit down causing me to bite my lip to hold back a moan.  "You don't have to be quite Rayne.  I know you love it." He slurred bringing his lips close to mine as he stared me in the eyes.  

"No I don't."  I said firmly.  

"Listen babe," He said grabbing my wrist and pulling me towards the bed and pinning me down on it, "I'm tired of taking it slow."  

All his words were slurred since a huge amount of alcohol coursed through his veins.  

He wasted no time to take off my shorts and shirt with his large hands.  I was laying beneath him with only my underwear and bra on.  I felt so vulnerable.  He was drunk and dangerous as hell.  He was crazy dangerous to be around anyways on a daily basis when he wasn't under the influence; now, it was on a whole different level.  

He brought his lips to every area of skin available on my body and even left love bites on my stomach. I was scared to push him away; afraid that he would do worse things.  

I tolerated the kissing but he soon started moving down to my underwear and slowly began to take it off.  

"Luke stop!," I screamed and kicked him in the stomach before he could take them off.  I didn't want to lose my virginity to someone who was drunk and let alone to him; someone who doesn't even love me like he said he did.  

He groaned and stumbled off the bed.  

"What the fuck Rayne!"  He yelled holding his stomach.  

I sat up and quickly pulled the shirt he had taken off me over my head and put the shorts on because I didn't want to be half naked in front of him.  

He took another swig of vodka.  

"What, are you scared to loose your virginity?"  He slurred taking another swig.  

"You don't know I'm a virgin," I said crossing my arms over my chest.

"Oh please Rayne," He said rolling his eyes, "It's so obvious you are and I'm tired of taking it slow."  

"Well I'm not going to lose it to a bastard like you!"  I screamed pointing my finger at him.  

"Shut up Rayne.  You love me and you know you do!  Don't be fucking stupid."  He took another sip of vodka.  

"I thought I did!  I clearly mean nothing to you or else you wouldn't be just getting rid of me tomorrow!"  I yelled.  

He sighed and ran his fingers through his quiff.  

"You, uh, heard the conversation?"  He asked quietly looking down at the ground.  

"Yea.  I heard everything."  

"Listen I-," He began as he walked over to me.  

"Save it Luke," I said harshly, "I know that this thing or whatever thing we had between each other was just temporary.  After tomorrow I want nothing to do with you and I don't think you want anything to do with me.  But I just want you to know that I actually had feelings for you, but now they mean nothing."  

"Rayne, why the hell do you think I'm drinking like this, huh?"  He questioned looking at me and raising an eyebrow, "It's because I know that there is probably no way to keep a relationship between us once you leave here. Do you think I actually want to end what we have?"  

"We have nothing.  I thought we did but we don't."  I said quietly.  

He took another swig from the bottle and put his arms around my waist and pulled me against his chest.  

"Babe, I wanted to make love to you tonight because I know that we wouldn't be able to do it after tomorrow."  He whispered against my lips; his alcohol stained breath sending chills down my spine.  

"That wasn't 'making love' Luke.  That was being a jerk and trying to take control of me while you're drunk."  I said undoing his arms from my waist and taking a step back.  His eyes looked hurt for a second then they were filled with anger.

"Sorry that I wanted to be your first."  He said as took another swig and raised his hands above his head.  

"No Luke, you only thought of yourself.  You wanted it not me."  I said as tears began to well in my eyes.  How could this be happening?  Just a few days ago we were in love and loved being with each other. Maybe we were never really in love? Now all I want to do is go home.   

Luke clenched his jaw and through the vodka bottle against the wall causing glass to fly everywhere.  

"You never loved me did you Rayne!"  He screamed as his eyes began to water.  

"I did but since you don't and never did, I don't love you the tiniest bit!" I screamed back at him.  

He opened his mouth to respond, but nothing came out.  We stared at eachother for what seemed like forever as tears slowly fell down my cheeks.  

"Just go." He slurred.  

I swallowed, took a deep breath and turned around.  As I walked back to my room, tears fell down my face and my world became cloudier.  My world was crashing down and I lost someone who was once so important to me.