Murderer

25

I was in shock but so happy; I was not going to let Luke get away this time.  

"Rayne, I know you aren't ok so I'm not even going to ask if you are.  What happened?"  His voice was soft and gentle as he sat next to me on the pavement.  

"Luke I'm sorry!  I'm so so so sorry," I cried, "I came here with someone else then he was smoking pot and then he wanted to fuck me and I just can't beli-" 

He leaned in and cut off my rambling with his warm soft lips and cold lip ring on mine.  It was one quick kiss that when he pulled away, it left me aching for more and I now know how much I really did miss him. 

"It's ok, princess. You're ok now and that's all that matters."  His voice was so sweet as he stared into my eyes.   

"But I'm so sorry the way I treated you.  You were trying to work things out and I didn't even give you a chance.  I'm so sorry."  The tears had stopped falling but my voice kept cracking.  

"No.  I'm the one that's sorry.  What I did to you was the worst fucking thing and I can't tell you how much it killed me.  I don't know what came over me, but I just never would ever do anything to you like that ever again please believe me."  His eyes were so pleading and I'd realized how much I missed him.  

"I forgive you," I said nodding and smiling a tiny bit.  

"And giving you that memory shot was just the most terrible thing.  I'm so thankful the cops did come and stop me from giving it all to you, or else we wouldn't be here right now.  You would have never remembered me and then nothing would hav-"  

"I never stopped thinking about you."  I smiled.  

He smiled and chuckled; bushing back that hair the was wet from my tears off my face with his gentle hands.  He placed his forehead on mine and brought his lips so close with mine that they almost touched.  

"I'm crazy in love with you Rayne."  His hot breath on me made me feel like we were in our own little world; just me and him, "Do you still love me Rayne?"  He whispered.  

"Who said I ever stopped?" I smiled against his lips.  

He laughed onto mine and within seconds, we collided.  Our lips moved in sync and it was the best feeling I ever felt. One hand was gently on my cheek and the other was supporting me on my back.  I wrapped my arms around his neck; this was the happiest I have been.  

He pulled away after a while and whispered in his soft, gentle voice, "Let me take you home."  

I nodded and he helped me up off the ground and led me to his car; the same one I got in when he first kidnapped me.  

He started the car and immediately turned on the radio; Longview by Green Day started playing.  He didn't turn it up loud, instead he began to talk.

"I'm glad we worked things out."  

"Me too," I smiled, "But I still wanna talk about some things."  

"Really?"  He questioned' raising an eyebrow, "I mean sure but what?" 

I know that I loved Luke, but I needed to make sure that I wouldn't get hurt again in the future.  That was my fear.    

"I-I'm just unsure about a few things." I whispered staring down at my feet.   

"Like what baby?"  He said gently as he put one hand on my shoulder; sending chills down my spine.  

"I just need to think about a few things." 

He just nodded and continued driving.  The rest of the ride was silent with only the noise from light music in the background.  

Finally, he pulled up to my house and stopped the car.  He turned to look at me and our eyes met and the same feeling of sparks engulfed my body.  He gently placed one hand on my cheek and stroked it with his thumb.  

"Rayne, whatever doubt you're having, I can fix it.  We can really make this work, but if you need time to think, that's what I'll give you."  

I nodded; trying my hardest to hold back the tears welling in my eyes.  

"Thank you," I whispered, "Good night Luke."  

"Good night baby," He said so softly as he kissed me gently on my forehead.  I got out of the car and quickly made my way upstairs after I said hi to my parents and let them know I was still alive.  I didn't tell them anything about Jake or Luke, I just wanted to go to sleep.  

I quickly changed my clothes, brushed my teeth and washed my face and climbed into bed.  So many thoughts were racing through my head.  

I know that I love Luke; I know that for a fact, but what I don't know is if I will get hurt or not.  I don't know his situation with the gang.  All he told me was that he was bailed out and that isn't enough for me.  I want to be safe when I'm around him and not have to worry about being taken or in danger of being shot.  Was being with him really worth everything else that would come with it?