Fabio's Colombo's Gay Chronicles

Forgiven But Lost

Sunil's POV

Brandon just hugs me, i can't believe he left you. You guys got married, I thought that was forever I say. First Johnny now Fabio, I'm not lovable no matter what I do. Hey don't say that, I'm a curse everywhere will leave me in the end. You, Ashton, Mattia, Nidal, Kevin and Gavin. Noah, Bryce, Krew his family and George and his family.

Johnny screwed me over, so did Fabio. What do I do, I have no one to help me. Everyone around me will go away in the end, I'm no good for anyone. Brandon will you do me a favour, Sign this. What is it, you will have Custody of Ashton. No I can't, he needs you. I can't be the father I once was, please. No, your his dad.

I just cry, hey Sunny its ok I got you.

Ashton comes crying,  Fabio split up. I just cry, he broke it of with me. I'm sorry dad, you should of told me and Gavin. I wanted to so bad, but I did not want to hurt you guys. Dad you need to stop thinking of us for a change, what's this. My will I lie, if something happens to me Bramdon ot Hunter gets Custody of you. He hugs me, dad I love you.

Ashton's POV

You looked comfortable I say to Brandon, he needed someone. Im just trying to be a good friend, you like him. Yes I have for a long time, but I felt bad going against my brother. I know you have Bran, I give you permission to be with him. He needs someone like you, Brandon hugs me. I love you so much Ashton, but safe he does not want me Brandon says. He does, he was comfortable with you hugging him. He likes you, the way he looks at you. You sure, he don't let people hug them unless he likes them and feels safe around them.

But what about Johnny, he has Walker what about Fabio, he has Jax. That's so sad how they all just moved on, leaving him all alone. I promise I'll look after him and love him, I know you will Bran.

Fabio's POV

Ashton left in a state, I feel so bad. I do love Sunil, but I felt like their was nothing their. I was hoping he would fight for us, but I guess he keeps fighting for me. Have I made a mistake, fuck I'm doubting myself. Mom I wish you were here so bad right now.

What's the matter Jax says, I'm just thinking. About who, Ashton. How hurt he was, I feel bad. Hey its not your fault, he'll come round. But Sunil has no one, can I go check on him. Sure, I get ready and leave.

I open the door, Sunil I call out. I see him in bed with Brandon, I get angry and slam the door.

Sunil wakes up, Hey Fab what's wrong. You, what did I do. Your sleeping with Brandon, he was just being their for me. Plus why does it matter Fabz, your with Jax. Can I not move on, no you can it's just I still love you. Fabz it's not fair on me, just focus on Jax. This can't be no double standards bullshit, if you can move on then so can I if I wanted to.

Amo.. Sunil I'm not saying that, I just got angry. I'm sorry Sunil, I have no right.  I hug him, I'll go focus on Jax. I don't mean it like thar Fabz, no I know. I do love you Fabz, I always have. Amore stop, Fab I have to say this. I love you I always will, I'm sorry I made you feel like I did not love you. I still do and I always will, I was the happiest ever with you. Happiness that can never be replicated, love that I never felt before. Emotions I've never felt before, a love I will miss. Amore stop please, Fab please let me say my peace. Even though we're not together, you can come when we're you want bring Jax. It will help you adjust, I love you so much Fabio. Sunil  kisses me, that's the lass kiss you will ever get of me. SUNIL YOU CANT KISS ME, I know I'm sorry. Sunil hugs me. I look at him, can I not hug you either. I hug back, I love you to Amore. Is it OK of I still call you Amore, yes you can. But if I have a boyfriend which is a big IF you eill have to ask them.

How can you forgive me but not Johnny, you would never lie about who I am. You were proud of me, proud to call me yours. You would never hurt me like that, and u never will Amore.

Go home to Jax, he may get suspicious.

I arrive home, you smell different. Don't worry we only hugged, or can we not hug. No you can, Jax holds my hand. You love him, yes I had so many good times with him. I have 2 kids with him, it's gonna take time. Jax kisses me, I love you Fabio. I love you too Am..., Jax. You were gonna call me Amore like you used to call Sunil, yeah I'm sorry. Its ok, you were married it's gonna take you time to adjust, but I'm here for you Fabio. Thanks, I kiss Jax. I love you J, I hug him.

This may sound fucked up, but I wish it was Sunil I was holding. He just knew what to do, but I got to give Jax time to get used to me.