My now ex friend and I had an argument yesterday morning and now I have no friends. I'm not kidding. I don't. My last two friends both left basically at the same time. First my roomie/highschool friend Kohen who used me as a place till he got the call for a housing program and now he's got that opportunity. But I heard him complaining about me and he was very silent 99% of the time he was here, didn't want to do anything with me unless it was a good deal for him.
So he moved out, ghosted me. And now my ex friend Winston left me yesterday too.
I have my dog at least, I'm not sure how good my mental state would be without him. All I know now though is I'm okay to die. I'm easy to leave and forget. Everyone will be okay without me.
At least I have family too and I feel selfish with sitting down and giving up. I need help and bad. But no one will help me and I can't help myself.
I'm nothing. When I die soon. I will be forgotten by everyone in record time. I don't contribute I just burden.
If this is read the day I die soon, just know this.
I'm sorry all I've ever done is hurt you all... I'm sorry I never became anything, I'm sorry you had to deal with me. I'm sorry I just couldn't figure out life. I just lost my fight. The light in my eyes are gone, my heart is destroyed and my soul is burnt out. I love you.
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I'm losing weight slowly but steady, just have to keep going. I'm going to try and enjoy my day regardless of how things are. Ive got lots of projects and things to do that I enjoy. Distractions are my favourite things.
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Before I die
PoetryHi, you can call me GKD. I'm a 22 yr old male and I'm struggling to hold on these days. I honestly feel like I'm dying soon, I can just feel it. So I wanted to put my words somewhere. Maybe in my pain while the comforting arms of death get closer, y...
