sturniolo/nate imagines

⚠️sh⚠️ interrupted-matt

                         
I've never written anything before, so don't judge me, I know it's bad. Also, we're gonna pretend Matt could drive to her, but hasn't seen her in like 2 months.

And this is going to be during the let's trip tour, not the virus tour.

                           Y/N POV

Matt was currently on tour. And I am so proud of him. But it was still hard on me.
We face timed almost every night and texted a lot, but it's not the same as having him with me.

Somehow, I found myself in a position I hove been in many times, trying to calm myself down.
No, no, no. Not this again. I promised Matt. I won't do it.
Text him. That's what he told me to do. 
My heart was racing as tears pricked my eyes. Text him.

                      
 

                         Matt 💞
                                                                             

Matt
Matt, I need you
Please
I don't know what to do

                                                                             

I tried calling him as a last resort. But there was nothing.I let out a shaky breath as I threw my phone. I walked to the bathroom and searched my drawer until I found my blade. I know I shouldn't, but I need to.
I was now sobbing uncontrollably, but there was nothing I could do, I was going to give in again. Almost 2 years down the drain.
I sat against the wall, slowly sliding down my pants. I see all the old scars litering across my thigh. I'm so disappointed in myself, but I don't know how to stop.
The blade slides across my skin ,creating a familiar sense of relief and guilt.

                              Matt POV

We were doing individual meet and greets when my phone started buzzing. I silenced it cause I was with a fan. Planning to check it later when I'm done.  

          (Time skip to them on stage)

Nick grabbed a question from the box and asked. "Who is on their phone the most." " matt, " chris said imedietly. The crowd giggled as I said. "No way! You're on your phone way more than me. " he looked at me with disbelief as I stared at him in shock. " There is no way." He said confidentiality. "Are you serious?" i asked. We continued arguing, "Check your screen time." Chris said as he pulled out his phone. "Ok, prepare to be wrong."
As i pulled out my phone and saw a series of missed texts and calls from Y/N. This worried me because she usually doesn't text me on days I have shows until I text her first because she "doesn't want to distract me from the fans." Wich I told her was ridiculous but she didn't listen."hold on." I said as my expression changed. "What?" Nick asked as he noticed my change in aditude. My face completely fell as I read her texts. "What happened?" Chris asked as he looked up from his phone. I walked over to them and lowered their microphones as they gave me worried and confused looks. As I showed them the texts they looked just as worried as I did. They didn't know all I knew about Y/N, but they knew that she struggled with mental health. I was the only person she had told about her self harm and past attempts. Not even her family knew.
The fans grew louder as I looked at them for what to do. "What does that mean." Nick asked. "I don't know what do I do?" I replied anxiously. "Calm down." Chris said as he put his hand on my shoulder. "I'm sure she's fine just try to call her." I nodded quickly and handed Nick my microphone as jogged of the stage, and called her.
"Ok Matt has something he needs to take care of so he's gonna be gone for a little bit." Nick said trying to calm down the fans.
I paced back and forth as the phone rang over and over again. I called her 5 times, and there was still nothing. I looked to my brothers for help and Nick took chis's mike and shoved him tword me as he tried to entertain the fans. "She's not answering" I said frantically. "Ok deep breaths" he said noticing my struggle to breathe. I tried to controll my breathing as chris spoke. "Stay calm, what's the worst that could've happened?" I looked at him with tears in my eyes thinking that she could be dead. I guess he got what I was hinting at. "Oh, ok" he took a deep breath. "I didn't know it was that bad." He mumbled. "Chris, what if-" "no" he cut me of. "Don't think like that. Uhmm, I don't really know what to do. Uhhhhh, Ok you can drive home. its only like-what like a 45 minute drive?" I looked at him with tears rolling down my cheeks, thinking of all that could happen in 45 minutes. Chris noticed how    I was thinking and said. " Hey, she's Ok. But, I don't know what other option there is. Ok, Nick will know what to do."
He turned and tried to waved down Nick. "One moment please." Nick said setting down his mike and walking over to us. "What" he said quickly. "She's not answering." I said  bitting my nails as tears continued to fall. "What do we do" chris asked him as he rubbed my back trying to calm me down. "Uhhh, I think the only thing you could do is drive home." "But that will take like 45 minutes, she could-" "stop." Nick said quickly "it's either you dive home or stand here worrying." "Ok, Ok I'm going." I said walking away. "Wait what about the fans." I asked. "We'll deel with them." "Ok, but you can't tell them it's about Y/N, I shouldn't have even told you. " "Ok, now go." Nick urged.