Intertwist (Boy's Love)

CHAPTER 10

The alarm on my phone echoed in my room dahilan para magising ako. I slowly got up from the bed while rubbing my eyes a little. I then stood up and went to the window to open the curtains.

When I opened the curtains the rays of sunlight then slowly sneaked its way into my room. I looked at the sky accepting the rays of sunlight, as it touched my skin.

It's been a month since the funeral. His body was found in the forest where we had our camp. Bakit hindi ko pa talagang naisipang maghanap doon.

I took a shower then went ouside my room to start cooking for myself. I then suddenly felt happiness while I was cooking. As I was cooking words blurted out from my mouth.

"What do you want to ea-" but then when I turned around there was no one. I was alone. I closed my eyes frustratingly and just went back cooking. When I finished cooking, I then placed the food that I cooked on the table.

As I was eating, a familiar feeling rose up again.

"Is it good?" I suddenly asked but after a couple of seconds I then realized that he's not in front of me.

"How stupid." I whispered. I became silent and just went back from eating.

Pagkatapos ng lahat ng gawain sa bahay ay agad na rin akong pumasok sa trabaho. As usual pareho lang rin. Ginawa ko ng maayos ang trabaho ko. Pero bakit gano'n. Something is missing. Something's empty. Something...

Umuwi rin ako pagkatapos ng trabaho. I walked the street and when I arrived, his house caught my attention. As I was looking I then noticed the door slightly moving.

I rushed and entered the gate. I then immediately opened the door and blurted out words again.

"Gray, are you here? I just went home from work." I uttered while still panting. But when I looked around the house I see no one again. The feeling of longing rose in me.

As I stepped my foot walking on his house all the memories flashed in my mind. I looked at the couch and saw myself laughing with him. He was smiling eagerly and was completely happy. When I looked at the kitchen, I saw myself cooking something for him and washing dishes with him while we're both laughing.

When I entered his room I saw myself waiting in his bed while he's still busy designing. We were both bickering and was joking a lot.

I looked around on his room and something on the table caught my attention. I went to his table to look at it clearly. Nang makalapit na ako dahan-dahan ko itong hinawakan.

It was a photo of us together in the beach placed in a frame. I smiled painfully, remembering all those memories.

"So you printed it." I whispered and my voice almost choke out.

I went outside his room and looked at his house for the last time. This house will be forever filled with memories that I will never forget. I admit that I thought forgetting you was the best decision for me to stop hurting. But no.. I dont want to forget those memories. Those eyes, those smiles, those laughs, our bickerings. I will never try to forget those because those moments were the best thing that happened in my life. Those moments were my happiest. I felt comfort from you. Comfort that I never received from someone. I felt the feeling of loving someone truly, something that I only felt from you and I felt the feeling of pain and grief of losing and regretting someone that you really love. How I wished I said those three words more earlier. How I wished I tried to reach out and pursued you sooner but I can't bring back those times anymore because all I could do now is to cherish those memories.

You will always be a part of me.

After looking around I then went outside. I looked at the sky. The sky reflected the shade of orange while the sun is setting down. As I smiled bitterly, tears then slowly flowed in my cheeks. Maybe it was because I remembered his warmth, his hugs and his love for me despite of me neglecting it. Maybe.. this is also what he felt it. ..Is that why he asked for a hug?

But unfortunately.. I can't feel that warmth anymore.

"You're.. really gone Gray.."