Intertwist (Boy's Love)

EPILOUGE

As I walked myself in the streets, I inserted my hands in my jacket. It was almost christmas. I could see the lights twingkling and shining in every house na nadadaanan ko.

I am now in Paris. I visited my family who has a bussiness in here. I also came here because I want to see the Eiffel tower. A place that I want to go with him...

I continued walking until I got a sight of Eiffel tower from a meter of distance. I then spent minutes in walking to the Eiffel tower. When I arrived, I was quite panting a little but was also mesmerized by the tower itself.

Its lights are dazzling in the middle of the night and completely standing out.

"Can you see this Gray? I'm now in Paris." I laughed a little while talking to myself.

It's been five years.

"Hey, I'm sorry to disturb you but can you take a picture of us?" A girl approached while pointing to the guy who's ready to be captured.

"Yeah, sure." I replied. I accepted her camera and then positioned myself to take a picture of them. They are completely happy and was obviously a couple.

"Okay, smile." I uttered and tapped the camera.

"C'mon, it's just a picture." I insisted

"I told you, this is not my thing..."

"No you actually look good, but you're just too tensed." I uttered.

"Then what am I supposed to do?"

"Maybe try not looking at the camera and just look at me."

"Thank you." The girl uttered after I finished capturing them. I then gave the camera back to her. She was about to leave but then she looked at me with surprisingly sadness in her eyes.

"Babe let's go." The guy uttered but the girl still insisted to stay and looked at me.

"Do you want me to take a picture of you?" She offered. I was silent for a moment but still decided to accept it. I gave her my phone then positioned myself.

"Smile." she happily uttered and tapped the phone.

As I try to smile, a part of me suddenly hoped that he is with me right now, by my side and taking a picture of us together. The sadness that I felt before came back but I still tried to smile as much as I can.

"Here." She uttered while giving me the phone back.

"Thank you." I replied and took the phone from her.

"You can do it, It's okay. I know that feeling. I've been there but now I already accepted it. Yes, it may be an unbearable hopelessnes but accepting it doesn't mean na you're forgetting that someone, you're just living your life and at the same time cherishing the memories that you had with that person together." She smiled.

My heart broke after hearing what she said. All the feelings that I've been ignoring for the past years suddenly swelled up inside me. All the memories came flashing back in my mind. It feels like I was stabbed a lot of times.

"Have a good day, that's all bye." She uttered before leaving.

All I did was froze in that moment. I then looked at the Eiffel Tower again.

I bowed my head and looked at the picture that she took. I was smiling, but the gloom in my eyes can still be seen. Vividly seen...

I still can't do it. I can't still do it Gray. I can't still move on. I can't still believe that you're gone. I still don't want to believe it. You're the person that I really loved the most...and I can't accept that person....is...gone.

Maybe someday Gray. Maybe someday I can finally find someone new, but right now I still can't do it.

Tears then fell from my eyes. I swallowed hard as I raised my head to look at the sky. A little shades of light came shooting in the sky then exploded. Oh.. so the fireworks already started. It's already Christmas. A christmas that I want to experience with you, but.. you're not here anymore.

How I wish you were here...with me..

I'm sorry Gray but I still can't really do it because even five years already passed... or even if 10 or 20 years will pass your soul got already intertwisted with mine and...

I will... forever miss you throughout my lifetime...

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THE END