Lying To You {a.i}

Chapter 6

Tried to make this chapter good, but I think it turned out shit :( oh well, enjoy!!

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Panic; that's the only emotion I was feeling today.

I mean, sure, I was definitely excited to see Ash, but fucking nervous overall. What was I going to wear, how should I do my makeup, how do I act, ugh my mind is busy with thoughts. And for me, that's a bad thing.

Too many thoughts results in a distraction... And my distraction is a small silver blade. For me, I visit that distraction too often.

"Aubs, I'm home." Monique called out.

I rummaged through my cupboard, trying to find something to wear. It was 5:04. 56 minutes until Ashton was going to pick me up, and I was no where near being ready.

"I'm in my room." I called back, pulling out a black dress and holding it up against my body.

No, no... Oh god no, it looked like I was about to go to a bloody funeral! So I put it back in the cupboard, shaking my head softly.

"Hey. Where are you going?" She asked, walking to my bed and laying down. I glanced back at her.

"I'm... I'm just going out." I shrugged, taking out another dress and holding it up against my body. But again, it looked atrocious.

"Well... Where?"

"Um- well, I'm going on a date-"

"What?" She sat up.

"Yeah." I softly smiled, pulling out a skirt, and slipping it on.

Okay, so I kind of hate skirts right now. What the fuck do I wear!?

"Wait- so Ashtons taking you out on a date?" She double checked, looking up at me.

"Yeah... How do you know his name?" I asked, sure that I hadn't mentioned it before.

Moniques eyes widened slightly, and she laid back down, mouth parting slightly.

"You- you've mentioned his name. I just have a good memory for names." She softly said.

Oh. I had no idea, but it seems legit. I mean, I'm positive Monique wouldn't have stalked down my one night stand. She's not that crazy.

"Oh- right. Forgot." I softly laughed, tugging down my skirt and going to chuck it back in my cupboard.

"No, wear that skirt, it looks so good on you!" She said, holding her hand up. I looked at her.

"But... I don't like it."

"Your bum looks amazing though. And it shows off your little waist. I like it." She shrugged. I glanced back down at it, biting my bottom lip softly.

"You sure?" I softly asked, slipping it back on. She nodded.

"Oh, and wear that black top you wore the other day." She said, looking at me. I nodded, walking to my basket and rummaging through my clothes.

I found the black top, tugging it out and holding it up.

"This one?"

"Yeah. Put it on." She smiled, laying down on my bed.

I turned around, taking my top off and letting it drop to the floor.

"So... Do you like Ashton?" She asked.

I put the top on, glancing back at her.

"Well... Yeah. I kinda do. I mean..." I paused, letting out a soft sigh and looking at myself in the mirror.