Choosing 13 | Johnny Kavanagh

chapter twenty one

Lilia

Oh my fucking fuck! What did I just do?
Top tier stupidity right here!
I speed walk down the street, trying to keep my skirt down while I text one of the girls to ask if they could pick me up.
Why did I do any of that?
I should not have been at Kavanagh Manor, I 'was supposed to be at another house where I would get fucked and stayed away from him.
What am I fucking doing.

I'm pacing back and forth when a SUV black car pulls up next to me, the window slides down and Ethan leans over, "tu as bien fait," E say in French, that we talk in sometimes because we thought we were going to sound cool in year 7.
But now, it's a comfort thing we have.
It's those words that make the tears stream.
He opens the door for me to get in the passenger seat, "I fucked it," I whisper into the air, the car starts moving.
"You didn't fucked it, mate," he says calmly, still focusing on the road.
I really did.

I didn't do alright because I ran out of a guy's house because I can't handle the thought of him liking me. Maybe I'm delusional or something but guys don't just bring girls over their fucking house.
I know, I have first row seats.
Putting my glasses on my head, I groan, annoyed at myself, "E, he just said his dog likes me and I freaked," I exclaim, slumping deeper into the seat.

Why did I do any of it?
Ethan didn't even bother to hide his laughter, he laughed so loud that I started to laugh with him. "Lilie fuck sake," he says with a teasing smile, "you know that is so stupid."
That earn him a wack on the back of his head, "I fucking hate you," I laugh through the tears that are pouring down my cheeks, "didn't you think I would of thought that."

Wiping off tears with my sleeve, we sit in silence as we drive past neighbourhoods.
My head rolls from the window to turn to him. "Who's Zoe?" I ask randomly, staring into his side profile intensely.
Bro... I'm this boy's, let's say best friend, and he hasn't even spit a word on the woman who is like his fucking girlfriend, Disappointed really, mans just want to gatekeep the girl.

Like I expected, Ethan's face stayed so fucking normal it's alarming for a sixteen year old boy, "why?" The car pulls up to a security checkpoint with a guy waiting, "can you open up, Marco?" the man nods.
"Good day, kiddos." The gates open and we move.
I laugh amusingly at his word, "Because I want to know who's stupid enough to fall for your empty heart?" I shrug like he just asked me a weird joke.

Oh he glares at me and I laugh harder, "you're a dick, Lil," he rolls his eyes, turning into a driveway.
"Fucking heartless."
My heart and jaw drop to see another white house on the massive hill with more front garden than any of us. "Either Weston or Sof lives here," I scoff as we both get out of the SUV and walk up the hill.
I know that Josh, Liz, and Liv live in like "average" rich people's houses, but the others- I didn't know they lived like this.
Holy shit!

I catch up with him while glawking on the house before me, staring at the enormously beautiful landscape as Ethan walks up to the door and opens the doors, I skip up the stairs and following him inside.
"Sof lives here," Ethan confirms to me, shoving his hands into his uniform pockets.

I stare some more at the stairs that came down on each side of the room with a bridge in the middle, "surely gotten richer than year 7, that's for sure," I mutter under my breath.
"E? That you?" I hear Kenji's voice down the hall, but before we see him, a little girl in the cutest overalls comes running up to Ethan.
"Daddy! Daddy!" she squeals and jumps happily in front of us.
"What the fuck?" I blurt out but quickly slap my hand on my face, "sorry?"
Wait, what? Ethan fucking Cole has a child? The 'I hate kids because they scream and cry' guy?

The tiny girl giggles, "Mummy says we shouldn't say that because they're bad words but Daddy and Uncles say it is okay," she shrugs.
Ethan rolls his eyes and picks her up in his arms. "Posie, you shouldn't say that to her because she's not your friend," he obviously teasing.
  I glance over at Kenji and slightly chuckle, "what's happening?" I whisper-hiss to Ji, awkwardly watching Ethan and his somewhat daughter