My Supernatural Crush (JiYoo fanfic)

12. Heartbreak

WARNING: SERIOUS self harm ahead! Blood! Mentions of alcohol!

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A splash of cold water as she washes her face finally wakes her up properly. Siyeon decided to stay the night at Sua's, so Jiu has some time for herself.

It had been a long night, and the flashes of memory she has been getting this morning from the time when the spirit took over shake Jiu to her core. She guesses the Soul Eater drained her too much because she didn't feed it, and was thus able to take over.

She has yet another body on her hands now. And as if that wasn't bad enough, she has totally, utterly fucked up her relationship with Yoohyeon. The body belonged to one of the girls she was flirting with the night before, as if the spirit is trying to mock her.

"Why do you keep doing this to me?! You wretched ghost!" She grips the edges of the sink harshly, knuckles turning white as she looks at herself in the mirror. A thought occurs to her.

At first, she dismisses it as crazy, but the more she thinks about it, the more it appeals to her. "Perhaps this will finally silence you..."

She punches her reflection, huge chunks of glass flying all over the bathroom. Jiu picks up one of them, placing it over her heart. She hesitates for a moment, then shakes her head.

"I can't keep going on like this. I won't let a monster take over my life."

Taking a deep breath, she slowly moves the glass chunk away from herself, only to slam it into her chest full force.

"G-gahh!" Blood starts gushing out of her chest, and she can clearly feel her heart is slowing down.

Black spots start appearing in her line of sight, and she drops to the floor as breathing becomes increasingly more difficult. She feels a chill like nothing else she has ever experienced before, starting at her toes, creeping up her legs and torso.

And yet, the only thing Jiu can think of, is the girl she had so terribly hurt the night before. She feels so damn sorry for doing this to Yoohyeon, and hopes she will find someone better.

Jiu's eyes slide shut after she finishes the thought, and then, there is only blackness.

--------------- some time later--------------

"Jiuyaaaaaaah!! Wake up, you lazy rabbit!! You're late for practice again!!!" Siyeon yells while banging on the door. Who knows how long she has been standing there, Siyeon is a veeery persistent being.

Thank god Siyeon left her key in the room before yesterday's concert, there is no good explanation for what Jiu is currently up to.

"C-coming!" Jiu replies, trying to sound as normal as she possibly can with the excruciating pain coursing through her body. The knocking dies down, and she can hear Siyeon's footsteps distancing themselves. She sighs in relief.

Apparently, the Soul Eater won't even let her die. If she ever decides to do this again, she supposes she'll have to try decapitating herself. But Jiu is pretty sure one death is enough for some time. It is certainly not a pleasant experience.

She rolls onto her back slowly, propping herself onto her elbows as she tries to sit up. She winces, the wound in her chest throbbing, but manages to do so. She notices her phone is laying close to her and picks it up, turning up the selca to assess her current state. Fuck.

She looks like she had participated in a fucking massacre. "Ugh, I can't go out like this..." She glances around the bathroom, and concludes that she rather ignore the gigantuous mess, at least for now.