SPF. 24 || MATT STURNIOLO: enemies to lovers

chapter 5: friends

after take off i still couldn't get what matt said off my mind no matter how hard i tried. i decided to turn on a movie to get my mind distracted from matt. i watched 'the black phone' on my computer. 

halfway through my movie i feel a tap on arm. i look to my left and realize it's matt.

i take out my airpods and say "yeah?" in a confused tone.

"i think we should talk ellie." matt says.

"yeah we should, but why do you suddenly want to talk now." i reply.

"can you just let me explain myself please?" matt asks.

"sure." i say.

i'm open to forgiving him but i am still holding a grudge over the fact that he was an asshole to me for four years.

"when you started dating riley i was so scared i was gonna loose my best friend and that you would forget about me. i was upset that you were spending more time with him than me, chris, and nick. i just wasn't used to not seeing you often when i used to see you everyday so i just had to get myself used to not seeing you. which was why i was being distant. i didn't like riley at all-"

i cut him off, "you had no reason to not like riley."

"i did though. he told me to stop talking to you and stop being around you. he would threaten that if i was anywhere near you he would make sure that me, nick, and chris would never be able to talk to you or see you ever again. i couldn't risk loosing my bestfriend. there were so many times where he was just flat out rude to you and you deserved so much better. he may have treated you good most of your relationship but sometimes he treated you like shit and you didn't deserve it at all, which made me hate him even more. i wanted to be there for you so bad but i couldn't." matt explained.

i thought to myself for a couple moments. maybe riley was a toxic boyfriend and i was just so in love with him i didn't want to acknowledge it. i reflected on all the times we fought, all the things he said to me, and all the times he made me cry. i cannot believe i wasted 4 years on this guy and lost my bestfriend because of it.

"matt i am so sorry. i wish you would of told me about what riley said." i replied.

"you shouldn't have to apologize. this is basically all my fault. i don't know why i let riley walk all over me." matt said.

"it's not all your fault matt. i get why you were being distant and not talking to me but what was the point of being so rude to me and arguing with me?" i asked.

"i don't know i was just so angry at myself and at the fact that i completely lost my best friend. i couldn't bare the fact that we couldn't go back to being friends. so i guess i let my emotions overcome me and fully lost myself." matt explained.

"okay. i understand." i say.

"i just feel so bad. i wish i could of talked to you sooner,  riley was just stopping me from communicating with you. i have no excuse for being rude to you i don't know why i was so immature." matt said.

i feel really bad for matt that he was letting riley walk all over him just like i was. i realized that he was just scared of loosing me and he was letting himself go due to this.

do you forgive me? i'm not asking to be best friends yet and act like nothing happened, i get it if you need time. but i don't want to fight or hate eachother anymore. i just want to be friends again and enjoy this trip together." matt asked.

yeah of course i forgive you. i just think i need sometime for now before we fully go back to normal." i say.

"friends?" i ask him.

"of course." matt says while smiling.

"thank you for listening ellie. i'm glad we talked." matt said while putting his headphones back on.

"me too matt." i said quietly as i put my airpods back on.

i am really happy that me and matt talked. i realized why he was making an effort to be nice to me today. i'm glad we are friends again i just don't think i am ready to go back to normal and act like nothing ever happened yet. i am just going to try to get over what happened between me, riley, and matt and enjoy my trip.

i put back on my movie and reclined my chair back to relax.