The Journey To Happiness

Chapter 27

HARPERS POV:

After a long conversation about Declan, Mom and my aunts were teasing me about him. He wasn't just a boyfriend, I had sex with him and I barely knew him.

I didn't know how I would tell Mom or my aunts about this, looking back on it I felt as if he almost manipulated me. I didn't full content, I kind of just nodded my head and he went with it he just rolled my jeans down and then it was all so sudden.

I didn't even know his age, I knew nothing about him. He seemed 15, maybe a bit older, but he was good to me he didn't seem pushy or needy or anything. It just didn't feel right you know..

There was only one person who knew about sex more than anyone, but I'm scared she might go to my Mom and tell her everything. Surely it's confidential, what if I'm pregnant? He didn't even use a condom.. what if he gave me an STD.. GOSH I'm so foolish, I let someone shove their dick up my pussy and I didn't even stop to think what I was doing. It-it just..it just happened and.. and I didn't know what was going on.. I was.. I was just-just upset, scared and I needed to feel relief.
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Mom was in a surgery for a few hours and left me in her office at the hospital. I decided I would find Carina and speak to her about this. Surely she would know what to do, I mean she is vagina expert after all.

I walked to her office to see her reading over some papers. I didn't want to disturb her, but she saw me walk past.

"Bambina, please come in I could need some company" She said pointing to the seat in front of her desk.

I kept my head down, twiddling with my thumbs. "Bella what's wrong" Carina said as she saw a tear fall down my face.

"I had sex with a guy I barely even know, I met him in the mall and we had sex with not even a day of knowing each other.. Oh my god! I'm a whore! Oh gosh.. don't tell my Mom.. I can't tell her this. Fuck what have I done" I said panicked, Carina looked at me.

"Hey bellina calm down, look sex is a natural thing. If you did it safe, used condoms and protection then I'm sure your Mom won't be mad or concerned." Carina said, I looked away. I didn't use condoms or protection it just happened.

"Did you use protection bellina?" She asked me, with a puzzled look on her face. I looked down at my fingers and shook my head slightly.

"Oh bellina, and you don't know him? Do you know his age, or anything" She said softly. I shook my head, the only thing I knew about him was his name.

"As a doctor, I need to do tests for STDs, then later pregnancy tests" She said, I felt nervous.

"I'm not on my period" I said knowing I couldn't get pregnant.

"Yes, but you could still be ovulating" She said, shit! I completely forgot about all that crap.

"Carina, I don't think I consented, I remember him saying he knew a way to make me feel better and I nodded and he kind of just- he just did it and I went with it"I said twiddling with my thumbs.

"That's not proper consent then, did you ask him to stop" She said now hugging me

"No I felt like I couldn't, he kinda just controlled it all" I said feeling anxious. Carina held me closely.
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"I need to test you for STDs, only if you want to, and I'm going to have to call your Mom I just have to I can't keep this from her." She said, I nodded I needed my Mom's comfort and support.

Carina called my Mom and explained everything, she must have ran so fast she was here in an instant.

"I'm here Harper, I'm here. Why didn't you tell me sooner" She said hugging me, still having Carina hugging me I was squeezed into a comforting cuddle.