A Harmony With You: Book Four

Leanne

I've had to steady my heart a lot this week. First, my heart fell for my sister. She cried to me about her stupid friend, Mario.

Idiot. Of all the days, he decides to ask my sister for her heart on her birthday. I used to like him, but I knew something was happening underneath that gentle mask of his.

I tried comforting my sister with ice cream and a movie. Kayla only hugged her and served her more ice cream, but she angrily pushed her bowl to the side and said, "I lost my best friend! Why can't I just like him back? He would still talk to me. He would still smile at me!"

"Emma," I said with a hint of firmness. "This is not your fault. What can you do if you do not feel the same way? He should understand and if he decides to walk away, let him be! He never appreciated your friendship after all. He thought he could always have you, but people move on. It's time for him to learn to move on and grow up, too."

She sniffled and her dark eyes sadly looked at me. A tear slipped down her cheek and I cleaned it away with a sweet smile. But she softly said, "I understand now how you felt when he left you and when Kim...When they left and broke your heart. I understand what it is to feel disappointment in your best guy friend. What will happen next?"

My heart broke a little again and I only hugged her. There's no way of knowing. I thought I knew, but I am still observing what comes next. I will always end up sitting back and keeping safe. But she is much stronger than I am and she has a sweet heart by her side. She has Lisa and she has Danny...

One can think that perhaps if we wait a little longer, then time will bring back the pieces together. It didn't work that way for me. I only watch them wait there for someone to pick them up. I thought that he would pick them up. Instead, he only picks me up to take a walk around the park near the hospital to talk about his wedding plans.

I've never seen Daniel this happy before. Not even when my heart fluttered with him back in college. I thought I had seen his true happiness, but he had finally found it. No wonder he disappeared. No wonder he grew silent for a while as I waited to see if he would come back.

He came back with a whole heart and mine continues in pieces.

I listened to the way he met her. I listen to how much he loves her. I listen to the way he wishes I could have met her more times before. He apologizes for disappearing and not talking to me for a long time. Like always, I ease the pain and wave those words away. It's better to push it away than to accept how much it hurts to wait for a future that was only a fairytale back in college.

Nevertheless, he continues to make me smile and never breaks my heart. I did that to myself thinking that he was my last hope.

I still share laughs with him as we eat a popsicle and I still tease him. But this time, I hold back even more. This time, I stopped myself from letting my heart fall for his kindness. For those light eyes that once taught my heart that there could still be hope. He showed that light to Lucy instead and she accepted.

I will always love my sweet boy and I know he still keeps me in that special spot in his heart he told me he would have for me in his memories. I have always kept him there even among my memories.

I don't know why I cried the first time I hung out with him. I know deep down that I wished it was him. I knew that I was jealous of Lucy. There will be no one with the same heart as my dearest friend. He showed me that there were still tender and innocent hearts out there that wouldn't hurt me. I hoped a little that it would be him at the end of the story, but I was very wrong. I was too slow this time and I missed my opportunity. We missed the opportunity for each other. Nobody nor time was in between this time. It was all me...