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𝕁𝕦𝕧𝕖𝕟𝕖𝕤𝕔𝕖𝕟𝕔𝕖: the state or period of being young.
𝔻𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕞: a series of thoughts, images, and sensations occurring in a person's mind during sleep.
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𝕋𝕙𝕚𝕤 𝕓𝕠𝕠𝕜𝕒𝕪 𝕚𝕟𝕔𝕝𝕦𝕕�...
"L/N, L/N! WAIT UP!" I was about to get in the car but to go home but turned around when I heard Kirishima. "L/n, the class is going out for a bit are you coming?" he had that big smile on his again but also looked wildly out of breath. "Miss Y/n, your father wants you back on time today." Sekiguchi reminded me just as I was about to say yes. "Sorry I'd love to but my dad wants me home today. Maybe next time." I said maybe next time but I know dad is never going to let it happen. "Oh okay then, see you tomorrow." he dropped his smile and looked kinda sad as he walked away. I felt bad but I just got in the car so I could get home on time. I could've called and asked dad but there's no point because he's gonna say no. I couldn't even manage to go out when I lived in a different country.
"Y/n, home on time today." Dad is in a suspiciously good mood that I wish I could also be in. "Yep." I could pretend to be in a good mood but I really can't be fucked. "I'm sorry for last night sweetie, you should have never seen that. I promise it'll never happen again." Never happen again my ass. He held the side of my face with his hand and I leaned into it out of comfort. "I know, it's okay." No it's not okay. I'm so mad at him for making me watch that last night but I love my dad and I don't want him to be upset because I'm mad. "I have a surprise for you." dad brought me out by the pool to reveal a car. What a shocker.
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"Wow a car. It can go sit next to all my other cars that I totally drive because I'm definitely allowed to go do stuff, yay." Call me ungrateful but I don't want another car, I already have 3. "Could you have said that with anymore sarcasm. If you don't like it I can get you a different one." dad's ability to hear what he wants will never fail to shock me. "No I love the car but what is the point of a car when you don't let me drive anywhere or go anywhere. Every school I've gone to I've been the only person who's not allowed to hang out with friends and do something fun once and a while. My class went out this afternoon and I'm the only person who couldn't go." I don't even know why I bothered saying anything because he's just scoffing at me. " So that's what this mood is about. You want to hang out with friends. Do you know how risky that is for me Y/n? If you tell one of your friends what i do its all over-" , "But I won't and you know that. I've known your job my whole life and even though I know how wrong it is I've never told anyone. I just want to act like everyone else and do what everyone else does. I just want our family to be normal." I don't know why I'm saying all of this, all he ever seems to care about is his work. I always come second.
"What's that?" Dad snatched the papers I got from Recovery girl out of my hand. "One of the teachers at school got an appointment for me. So I could see a psychiatrist." I don't know why but I'm kinda nervous telling him this. At first I didn't want to see the psychiatrist but then I thought about it and decided I still don't want to go but I will to shit everyone up. "Y/n, sweetie......." dad held the side of my face again and smiled down at me. Maybe he's actually going to take me. "You don't need this." Dad threw the note and pamphlet in the pool with a chuckle. "You want to be normal but nobody is going to think that after they slap an OCD label on you. Besides I like my little neat-freak just how she was born." dad pinched my cheeks with his hand before walking off. "I should've known better." I sadly watched the paper disintegrate in the pool water. "I'm such an idiot."
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"Y/n honey why aren't you eating?" , "I'm not hungry." I really have no appetite. I'm not happy, I'm not angry, I'm not particularly sad. Something about today isn't right and right now I'm not feeling much of anything. Is everyday going to be like this? My class having fun and getting closer while I sit at home hating life. I wonder if everyone else in my class hates home as much as I do, I doubt it. "Are you really that upset I want you home?" I didn't answer because he should be intelligent enough to figure it out. "This is fucking ridiculous." Dad threw his chopsticks down on the table and leaned back in his chair. "You think I had friends, do you think I got to where I am by having friends. Do you think you'd have all this money if I decided that my life would end if I didn't have a few buddies by my side." he just doesn't get that I don't want to be him or his dad.
"But I don't want that dad. I don't want the money, the business, the power. I want to have friends, a job I enjoy, a boyfriend who I don't have to hide from you. I don't want to be you or grandpa so why do I have to grow up like you guys did. It's not fair." I looked down at the cold plate of food in front of me because I don't want to see the disappointed look on dad's face. "You should be grateful I'm even entertaining this stupid hero dream and not forcing you into this job like my father did to me. Eat your fucking dinner and go to bed." Dad slammed his hands on the table before getting up and storming off. As soon as he was out of the room I let the few salty tears I've been holding in slip out. "What the fuck is wrong with my family."
