Forever and Always

Lilium

They have a garden!! I'm only figuring this out after four and a half months of working here. The past two months have been the same, breakfast, lunch, dinner, clean, read, sleep. Cane has been busy so I haven't seen him much, less arguments too maybe because Cane leaves in two weeks. I'll admit I'm sad but not in-front of him though.

I look at all the flowers and get lost in their beauty. Snapdragons, roses, gerbera daisies, orchids, hydrangeas, tulips, carnations, anemones, even more, but most of all my favorite flowers Lillies. Lillies have many meanings but my favorite "restored innocence after death".

"What are you doing?" I heard you know who's voice.
I smiled gently,"Looking at all the pretty flowers."
"I'm looking at one right now."
"No you're looking at me you silly goose."

He started laughing, I loved hearing his laugh it felt like home. It made me start to laugh as well. I didn't want him to leave for 6 months, every-time I thought about it my eyes got watery and would lead to me crying. I have to go 6 months without seeing him. I hope we can write to each other.

"I leave in two weeks," he said sincere.
"I know."
"Do you want me to leave."
"It doesn't matter what I want, you have no choice but to leave."
"To me what you want, he grabs my hand, matters the most."

My eyes get watery and before I know it tears are streaming down my eyes.

"We've only know each other for four months I don't know why I feel this pull towards you, but I don't want you to leave. You and I have no say in this. It's only 6 months, but you've become someone dear to me. I care for you deeply."

I notice his eyes start get watery too.

" I've grown attached to you, when I first saw you I was annoyed, you were so beautiful but I though you were going to assume the worst of me, yet you've treated me with kindness, you are kind. You can't say that about many people. I don't know why around you I feel I can let it all out, be myself. I care for you deeply as well and I wish I didn't have to leave."

I saw tears running down his eyes my first instinct was to hug him and so I did. We sat on the field of grass and I hugged him tightly, it felt amazing to be in his arms, I didn't want to let go . I ran my fingers through his silky hair as he cried in my arms. Why am I grateful for this moment?

Then I heard light snores, is he asleep in my arms!?