Cover art is NOT mine!! It is by @/7W0RDZ on Twitter!
This story will contain abuse, foul language, sexual topics, body image issues, starving, depression, sexual assault, and self-harm. You will be warned before it happens
This is my first story...
"Ughhh." I groan as I roll over and turn off my alarm and stare up at my dark ceiling. After about a minute of contemplating my life, I finally roll out of bed and head to the bathroom. I wash my face, brush my teeth and hair. I stare at myself in the mirror, hating what I see. I sigh and walk back into my bedroom, picking out an outfit. I usually don't dress up, but since it's the first day, I'll try to look.. somewhat decent..
I look through my closet and pick out a black mesh top with black flower lace all over it. Then I grabbed a black skirt from my dresser and put it on. I would love to wear gothic outfits every day, but I don't have the money for clothes, I only have a small amount that I thrifted. I save them for special occasions. I put on my shoes and a necklace a friend bought me last year at my old school. It makes me feel special.
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This shirt but longer, not a crop top cause Y/N is super insecure of her stomach. It's not too big, just a pouch, but her mind always makes her view herself differently
Y/N wears tights underneath the skirt cause she's also insecure of her legs. She doesn't really know why, but she thinks they look weird. In reality, they don't
⚠️Mention of starving⚠️
I look at myself in the mirror, clenching my jaw as I do, still not liking what I see. It's better than usual cause I've been starving myself for the last 2 days, so I look a little better for the first day of junior year. I spray perfume and grab my backpack before leaving my house and walking to school. It's still dark out, which I enjoy. I find it a lot more peaceful walking in the early morning when the sun hasn't risen yet, the air is still cool, and all the animals are still asleep. I take a deep breath, forgetting about all the shit going on in my life right now, and what's more to come because of school.
I finally get to the school. It's still pretty early. Barely anyone is here. I have 45 minutes until school starts. I walk to my locker, getting flashbacks of getting pushed into it by that stupid goth kid, Peter. I lean my head against my locker and close my eyes. Why!! Why did he have to choose me of all people!? I open my locker and place all my books and supplies and whatnot in there. I'm just glad I get to be with TK again. He's my closest friend. I tell him everything. We barely hung out during the summer cause he had to work. We met only a week after I transferred to this school. Last year, in the library..
>Flashback<
I was minding my business when a green haired boy walked up to me and sat at my table. Confused, I just stared at him, waiting for him to say something.