Goth Boy Peter~ [Peter x Fem Reader]

Chapter 65

⚠️This chapter contains self-harm. Please read with caution.⚠️

~♡Y/N's POV♡~

The drive home was super awkward. I didn't say anything cause I was scared I was gonna let it slip that I made out with TK, just from the guilt of lying to him. I really do hate lying. He didn't say anything either, so I thought he caught on, or he was just mad at me. The silence got to me, and I started overthinking again. Does he actually want to go to the dance with me? He said he's only ever gone to watch his sister and that he thinks dancing with someone is a waste of time.. So why would that change for me? I can't believe it. I know no one could ever like me like that..

When we get home, I go straight to my room to calm myself. I crawl into bed and hold onto my stuffed tiger for comfort. After a couple of minutes, I fell asleep.

Around four and a half hours later, I started waking up. My eyes slowly open as I stretch and sit up. Rubbing my face as I yawn before getting up and walking to the bathroom. When I walk out, I notice Peter's door is open, so I quickly hide in the bathroom. Until I hear Sarah and Peter talking. I slowly peek my head out, trying to listen to them, but they're so quiet. I take my time walking over to his door so I don't make any noise. I hear Sarah asking, 'Did she not like it?' Now I'm curious. Are they talking about me? Is he gonna tell her his prank didn't work out the way he wanted and that I caught on?

He doesn't say anything, and I hear Sarah's voice again before Peter suddenly yells. 'I asked her to that stupid dance!' Stupid? So he really doesn't want to go with me? Sarah asks him another question, only for Peter to yell again. I hear him telling her what I said to him. But he said I 'accused him.' So was I wrong? I hear him talking about the rose, and I start to feel bad. Did he really mean everything? I scoot closer to his door when he starts talking about the poem. Is that what was in the envelope? My eyes widen when he says he'll throw it in the closet with the hundreds of other ones he made for me. My heart skips, and I stare blankly at the wall. Did I hear him correctly? Did he just say the hundreds? And.. for me? Am I hearing things? I snap out of it when I hear Sarah's voice again. She says she's gonna talk to me, so I start slowly backing away from his door. I stop when I hear him tell her we're still going but just as friends. He sounds mad.. Did I really misinterpret this whole situation? Does he truly like me? I jump slightly when I hear him yell at her to get out of his room, so I quickly run back to mine. I hide under my blankets and hold onto my tiger. I ruined it.. I let my thoughts get the best of me, and now I hurt Peter.. I freeze when I suddenly hear my door open.

🌸: I walk to Y/N's room and walk in. I don't really care if she's sleeping cause I need to talk to her. It's not something that can be put off till tomorrow. The dance is literally next week. I sit down next to her and pat her back. "Y/N?"

🪻: I feel her sit down and pat my back. I pretend to be asleep until she says my name. I don't like ignoring people. I slowly lift the blankets and sit up. "H-Hi.."

🌸: "I'm sorry for waking you up, but I was curious about what happened today. Peter seems to be.. upset.. And I was wondering if you might know why?"

🪻: I look down as I chew on my lip nervously. I can't hold back, I just feel so bad. "I thought he was lying Sarah.."

🌸: I look at her with empathy. I put my hand on her knee, wanting to comfort her. "Why? I've been telling you for so long how much he really likes you.."

🪻: "Cause I still can't comprehend how someone like him, tall, thin, strong, and just pretty.. C-Could like someone like me.. I-I'm nowhere near thin, I have acne, I can't even eat without gaining five pounds and I k-know I'm not pretty.."