Goth Boy Peter~ [Peter x Fem Reader]

Chapter 62

•Continued•

🪻: My heart stopped for a few seconds when he finally lifted the hoodie. It was pounding in my ears when he didn't do or say anything for the first five seconds. But to me, it felt like five minutes. Does he not like what he sees!? Is he judging me?? I can feel tears forming in my eyes, regretting this whole thing. Why did I agree? He's gonna view me so differently now. He won't let me sleep with him anymore. Won't let me play games with him anymore. Won't even let me in his room or talk to him.. The loud beating quiets down when he says he's gonna start and my heart flutters when I feel his finger lightly caress my skin. I feel a little better but those thoughts keep replaying in my head, which makes me cry a little. I'm kind of uncomfortable. Not with him, just with the fact that I'm exposing my body. We're not doing anything bad, it just feels wrong.. Once he finally stops and covers me up, I feel my heart stop racing. But I keep my head in the pillow, not wanting him to see me crying.

🥀: I put the Neosporin on the nightstand beside her, and sit back down, but she doesn't move.. Is she sleeping? No, her breathing is normal, and she moved her hand.. "Y/N?" I say softly, but she doesn't move or say anything. I get a little worried and lie down next to her. I rub her side a little, trying to comfort her for whatever she's feelings right now. "What's wrong, Y/N? Did I do something wrong?" I move her hair behind her ear before pulling on her arm a little.

🪻: I roll over onto my side facing away from him. I'm too embarrassed to let him see me cry, especially because of something like this..

🥀: My worry only increases when she rolls over and ignores me. I wrap my arm around her and pull her against me before leaning over her. I see her trying to hide her face but before she can, I can see tears. My eyes widen and I start to panic a little. Did I do something wrong? Did I hurt her, or make her uncomfortable? "Please tell me what's wrong. Why are you crying? I-I told you to tell me if I made you uncomfortable."

🪻: I wipe my tears and take a deep breath. "Y-You didn't make me uncomfortable.." I say quietly.

🥀: I calm down a little but I still want to know what's wrong. I feel bad about whatever happened. I never want to make her cry. She only deserves happiness. "Then what's wrong, darling?" I ask softly as I pull her even closer.

🪻: I feel a little better when he holds me against him. And the way he calls me darling just makes me feel special. I take a deep breath. I think it's embarrassing to admit.. "I-I was just scared.." I say nervously.

🥀: Her little voice makes my heart hurt. She was scared? I don't want her to feel scared.. "Why..?"

🪻: "I-I've never really shown myself like that before.. I-It made me nervous.. And when you lifted the hoodie, y-you went quiet for a while.. I-I thought you were j-judging me." My voice gets quieter, becoming more embarrassed as I explain to him.

🥀: I feel so bad. I didn't mean to make her think I was judging her. And I guess I wasn't thinking. I should've known she'd be scared.. She's never had such an experience.. I wish I could tell her I was admiring her but that might be too soon, and make her uncomfortable. "I'm so sorry, Y/N.. I was quiet cause I wanted you to get used to it first before I started.. I-I didn't want to scare you.. I would never judge you.." I say as I squeeze her a little, wanting to be closer to her.

🪻: I can feel a weight being lifted. Even blushing when he said he'd never judge me. Does that mean he thinks I'm pretty? I roll over to face him and wrap my arms around him as I bury my face into his chest. "T-Thank you.." I say muffled into his chest.