Always in my heart

18

Drystan∆

I was too happy to see Cadmus like this.He was too much happy because he found me and I can say he was feeling safe now.

"Drystan, y'know Liam came to meet me.He hired that nurse and she tried to force me but I ran away from there.He again wanted to kill me.Where you were this whole time? You left without saying a word."He said looking straight into my eyes.I can't say any single word.I was silent.

"I want answer,i asked where you were?"He said with a serious look. And I can't come up  with any excuse."I was with Ames,he wanted to go to park."I lied.

"Great thing.So will you tell me the truth or you can leave."He said sternly."Hey hey! I am sorry.I didn't mean to lie like that.I mean I can't tell you.You are not even fully recovered yet.You are in this condition all because-"He put his finger on my lips." No more words please.Dare to say that again and you will see hell."He said staring directly into my eyes.

He pressed his lips against mine.It didn't last longer as I pushed him back.He left stunned. I didn't mean to do anything like this.And yeah I lied to him so that he can trust me.I don't like tears in his eyes.And he reminds me of something bad thing that happens many years ago.I left from here again.

After coming outside, I try to calm down myself.There was a very strange feeling and so many questions.Why do i not stay here?Why i leave him?He needs me the most.He will be crying.I should go back right now.I should.Just face him and tell the truth that there is nothing going on between us.

I finally stepped inside the room.Cadmus was only looking at his hands.He was wiping it again and again.I get more close to the bed.He finally look up to see me with his teary eyes.

"I am sorry Drystan.I didn't mean to hurt you.I was so selfish that i didn't think how you will feel.Even you don't know me.Do you really know me?"He asked still in that condition.

"I am sorry."These were the only thing I can say.And he smiled at me with tears start dripping on his cheeks.But his smile was still present.He was in pain.And I caused more.

"It's alright.Everyone has to forget and go one day.Even parents don't live for forever and what can I except from you for whom I am a complete stranger.I wish you a good life."He said with a forceful smile.

"It was all a lie.I don't why but it was a type of attachment with you. Like I have a good memory with you but something bad happens.I don't remember anything. It's all a blurry memory.Can you tell me what happened?"He shivers as I say those last words.He start trembling.After sometime I was successful in making him calm down.

He was sleeping peacefully.He didn't let me touch him.But i didn't go.I didn't leave him like I do everytime.I didn't ask him about what happened to him.

......

It was almost 11 and he didn't woke up after that.He only ate fruits since morning.So I wake him up.He was realising that he was not at home yet and I was still here.

"Why the hell are you still here?"He shouted. "Shh! Calm down please.I don't want you to be alone."I said."I was alone from the starting and if you will leave me alone,it will do nothing."He said trying to not look at me.

"Even don't say like that.Fine I am serious now.I didn't know you from starting from the very first day when we met with a accident done by my bike.At that time I like your attitude and than we happens to be in same college by chance and we get to know little better and you better remember everything in the past.Meet your enemy and i know it's so fucking annoying and specially meeting his brother and you don't know what wrong you did.But i felt a little attachment with you that attracts me towards you.Because of me you get into these things and i think I was a bad luck in your Life."I said and I didn't realise I was crying.

"Hey!Are you seriously crying?"He asked still angry with me."Just last words,I am sorry and i thing it would be better to leave you.Because i don't want more trouble to you because of me.Thank you baby boy for all you did in this a little time."I said and left with only tears and a scared face of him in my mind.

I went out of hospital.I can't breathe.It was so suffocating right now. I caused him more pain now.It was all because of me.I am the reason.

After cursing myself for hours,I make sure that he was doing well and was eating.I leave someone so that he can give me details.

.......

It was already a whole one week

But i didn't meet him.I saw him from distance but never had the courage to meet that beautiful eyes who always wants to stare in mine.To meet that very beautiful person who likes me but i don't know him. And I can never do anything for him except breaking his heart.

He was sitting with Silas, obviously he has no other friend except him.He seems a nice guy.

Cadmus was so happy with him.He was laughing and talking peacefully.He was so calm.He was not stressed about anything.I feel so good to see him happy like this after a long time.It feels like heaven.And i didn't realise I was also smiling like idiot.

"Is that Drystan?"Someone said from behind and they both look directly in that way.I quickly turned around and was going to ran away,but someone stopped me.

"Cady!Wait for me where are you going?" Silas shouted.I didn't make a eye content wth him and i don't even want to.I was only staring at the ground for no reason.I can only see his shoes.

"Look into my eyes!"He yelled.