Always in my heart

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Drystan∆

I was angry with Cadmus because he knows that he is still suffering but he is trying to make the fun of same thing.I get too scared when he didn't open the door and after seeing him crying i thought that something happened.And when I saw him like this it was just a blurry memory of something and I fainted.

I looked around the room for some seconds and found no one other than me and silence in the room.I checked if Cadmus was in shower but he wasn't.I got down and went directly into kitchen and I saw him sleeping on the table.He was sleeping so peacefully. But actually he wasn't sleeping.He was half asleep.I sat beside him and saw some tears on his cheeks that was not dry yet like it was shredded a while ago.I put aside hairs from his forehead and he make movement by my touch.He opened his eyes and saw me.

Quickly wiping his tears."Oh,Hey Drystan!What are you doing down?Do you need water?Or was craving something?You would have called me.Why to bother yourself?This isn't good--"I cut him off with a small kiss. "Stop babbling and go directly to sleep.And why don't you come into the bedroom if you were sleepy?"He was silent."I-I don't wa-want to disturb you.As y-ou was angry with me."He said in a breaking voice.

"Baby boy,I wasn't angry with you."I said."Than what was that,not talking to me not answering to my questions.What was this if you weren't angry with me"He said angrily."If you are going to be angry like this than what should I supposed to be.I was the one who should be.I came to check on you and instead of being happy you are angry."I shouted.He only stared in my eyes without blinking for once.Tears didn't stop but he slowly murmured 'sorry'.He went outside the house without saying anything.

Cadmus∆

I went outside without saying anything to him.I was angry and hurt too.I didn't except him to be like this.Many thoughts start coming into my mind.Am I a bad person?did i again hurt him?I cry so easily am i a cry baby? Everyone will think me as a bad person who always hurt his favourite ones. No one wants to be with me only because i am not good."Cadmus you are just overthinking okay,so stay calm."I said to myself.

I laid down on grass and stared at the moon. "Beautiful right?"I look at my side,Drystan laying down beside me.I became silent. Breathing heavily.I close my eyes."I am sorry Baby boy."He slowly whispered."Please forgive me.I didn't mean to talk like that to you,I was so full of things.Can you please forgive me.I will never do anything like that."I was only staring and hearing him. With so many tears that didn't stop a sec.

"I-I am so-sorry too.Can you forgive me?"I said   "You are already forgiven Baby boy.I am the one who did wrong.Can you forgive me?"He said with a smile."I wasn't angry with you.I was angry with myself that I can't control my emotions.I cry too easily."I said closing my eyes to have a deep breath. "Look Cadmus,It's alright.You can not have control on your emotions every time.It's difficult.But you have to be strong mentally and emotionally.But yeah don't force yourself to do it.Let it be on it's own way.Just trust the process and everything Will be alright.And most importantly trust yourself. Don't let things heavy on your mind."He said hugging me from behind. "Yes I will try my best."I smiled. "But don't bury your emotions inside you,let them come out whenever they need to."with this he carried me inside the house.

With looking more like staring into each other eyes,we both slept into each others arms.

I wake up breathing heavily.I saw no one was beside me. "Drystan,where are you?"I called him.I started getting more afraid. "Drystan!"Where are you?"I yelled. "Drystan!Please come."I again yelled.No response came.My surroundings were turning more blur and blur. And I don't know when I came back to the place where it all started...