Always in my heart

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Drystan∆

I saw him running away,so far away from me.Was it really a goodbye?I couldn't tell what really was in his eyes.Was it fear?I couldn't think straight right now.After hearing from Leon,I feel myself getting stabbed again and again.But i still found some connection with him.What-what if Leon lied to me and I again lose him.But why will he lie to me in first place.Ugh!I really need someone to talk.

"What's up bro?"Wow really fast."You are crying Drystan?"Ray asked giving me a concerned look."Oh!Nothing much.Just stressed."I replied making him chuckle."Bro! Then why I am here???Just spill everything and I mean everything.Whether I won't take this stressful face from you."I nodded.And I did explain everything.

"Drystan?"I hummed in response."What the fuck did you do?"He asked in a much angry tone."I did what I should have done before."I replied casually."Now as your best friend I really want to beat the shit out of you for putting that boy into this mess!!"He yelled. Okay he is not normally like this.Why is he caring that much about him.Who did nothing other than lieing."He lied and hurt my feelings and-"He cut me off again with a yelling."He didn't LIE TO YOU.He can never."I sighed.Not you Ray.

"Okay.Sorry-I am sorry.Now listen please.-"He paused for my approval.He continued as I said yes."He isn't lieing.Not even about a single thing.You being so close to him can't even find that and me,I can literally see it.You remember the first time we saved him here.That Liam said my brother just forced himself on Cadmus.Why did he say this?He can also lie like he forced himself on Leon.And it was the truth indeed.That Leon forced himself on him not Cadmus.You don't trust him after he took you at his home,and you even met his mom.Than why?Why are you torturing him more?He suffered already"

What suffered already?What does it mean?And I really forget that incident.Oh my god.I am really a stupid.But suffered already?.

"Ray!Suffered already?"I raised my brows at him."Not my story to tell.I talked to Carlin,you know his best friend.And I promised not to open my mouth and not even you.You should say sorry to him and just fucking ask him everything.Don't let him suffer alone.Which boyfriend let their beloved one suffering alone and just broke up at the difficult times.So stupid of you Mr.Drystan Rafael.I can't accept you my best friend anymore.That is what I teach you?"I laughed at his last sentence.

"Okayyy.Now dude what's with you and Carlin?"I asked being curious."N-nothing."I gave him a done look."Asked her out on a date and she said yes.Simple."

"This is not simple.Asking out is very difficult. A live example,your stupid best friend"I said. "Yeah a really one."He said in disbelief."Now light me up with your ideas my dear Ray."

His phone vibrated,as he looked towards it and he bid me goodbye and walked away.What's wrong with him?Back to Cadmus,I still can't decide what I am going to do.I broke up with him and that was a simple thing for me like it was nothing.But I feel hurt.And why it is bothering so much now.I can't believe him.I still think that he is lieing to me.

Whole day passed and not even once did I saw him.I went back home.And straight into my room.

"Drystan.What's wrong?"Mom asked from the door."Nothing mom.Not a good day."I replied."Anything with Cadmus?"Damn,No doubt she is my Mother.

"Mom,I-I don't know what's right and wrong right now.It's giving me headache now."I muttered and she gave me a small smile and said,"Huh?Is there any relationship that ends before it starts and after sometimes going back to the things like before?.Ofcourse it happens Drystan,don't stress.Figure and sort out the problems.It's not simple but everything is if you try doing it.So be my Drystan and come eat."She says it like it was such a simple thing.And I can't even saw that.I should figure out whatever the problem is.I mean is this true or not.

I smiled a little and went downstairs."Pumpkin!"He squealed in happiness."Yeah Ames,it's me.Did you trouble mom?"I asked looking at my baby brother eyes."No.Ames is a good boy.I also helped mom.You know she also  gives me a lot of candies today."His smile goes wider at the mention of candies."Candies is not good for teeth Amey.So one candy for one day."He nodded and went to his seat."He is really in a silent mode all day.Not doing his homework and sometimes zoning out too."She asked with a concerned look.I think something is bothering him.I should talk to him."Yeah.He rarely smiles nowadays.Is there something that seems to bother him?Anything you see when his gets sad?"I asked and she shook her head as no."Don't worry.I will talk to him after eating."I gave her an assuring smile and she returned it too.

We all ate in silence.Mom again giving concerned looks over to Ames.His smile grew wider when he saw me.And sometimes when I am around Cadmus,than he hate it.He sometimes give looks like he want him to go away from me.

"Ames,would you mind talking to me for a while?"I asked after putting our dishes into sink."Ofcourse Pumpkin!"I took an excited Ames to his room and make him sat on bed and me facing him.

"So...How are you?"I asked."I-I am fine."He replied,a little hesitant to answer."Okay let's come straight to the point.You are looking sad Ames.Why?Is there something you want?Did someone say anything to you?"His eyes not meeting me anymore.He was constantly staring at his hands.And one thing he didn't wanna show,Tears.His eyes were filled with tears.

"Hey!Come here.There is nothing to cry about.Your pumpkin is here right?"I pulled him into a tight hug and he cried for a while before uttering some words."Y-ouh.You not lo-love Ames?"He mumbled still wrapped in my arms.Okay,so what made him think like that in first place.

"Can-candy told-"I didn't let him finish his sentence and shouted a "what".I was really angry that he made Ames cry.Why did he told him that.I quickly called him without listening to Ames.Don't he dare to protect that person who made him cry,to make my Ames cry.A lier.

I called and he picked on 5th ring."What the hell Cadmus!What did I do you to hate me that much that you are making Ames hate me?TELL ME WHY???"I shouted at the top of my lungs.I only get to hear some sniffles."W-wh-at are yo-u-""He breathed out.What he is crying?"I d-didn't."his voice cracked and I could him crying.What's wrong with him?

"What are you doing PUMPKIN?"Wait what?Now what's with him?"I am doing what I should have done before."I replied."By making him cry?You didn't listen to me."He frowned.

"Continue."He told me to put phone on speaker so he can hear his voice more clearly."I was saying that Cadmus told me that Drystan loves me.No matter what.He is just busy sometimes and doesn't have the time to talk or play with me.And he assured me that he will never take away my pumpkin away from me even if one day he have to be gone."He finished.Oh shit!You stupid Drystan!You are really an idiot.Now what?Is this how you love being embarrassed?

"I-I am sorry-"Call ended.He immediately ended the call.I tried but failed.Ames get up from his bed and walk towards door."When things with Candy will be settled and he himself come here and tell me that you both are happy and you apologized,till than DON'T COME near ME!"I forget he is my brother and he knows how to yell and make other person regret by your words.

I tried calling him but no response.Was he okay?Was he crying because of me?Was he-

"Drystan!DOWNSTAIRS RIGHT NOW!"Mom yelled.What's up with this day.....

"Yeah mom?"I asked."Why Ames is crying?"Her anger is the worst."It's a long explanation just know that I did something instead of fixing and he just thought that I don't love him anymore."I sighed.

She calm down a bit and make her way towards her room with Ames.I really messed up today!And right now,I feel like never wanna talking to that person who hurts me.And I will never.I will fix it on my own!

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