Memoir

Chapter 4: Heat wave

You didn't get much sleep after the tensions from the previous night.

Who could blame you? There was too much to process, and yet so many things were left unsaid.

What was the right call?

You've never imagined yourself in a situation like that, you're life was simple before Ran.

Well, not really simple but.. predictable.

Kinda.

Mikey only agreed to your departure for two days and you weren't going to miss any second on something worthless like sleeping so there you were, half asleep in the kitchen struggling to work the ancient coffee machine.

Ran just woke up too and he was sitting on the counter in the opposite corner of the room, watching you silently.

You couldn't help but steal some glances here and there. He was only wearing a loose pair of shorts, displaying his half body tattoo.

Suddenly the room felt hot and you found yourself struggling to breathe.

Y/n: "About last night.."

Ran: "There's nothing to talk about"

He looked at you with a stern expression on his face and spoke in a cold tone, making your heart ache a little.

Y/n: "Only that's not exactly true"

Ran: "You made yourself pretty clear last night, don't worry"

Y/n: "I-.. are you upset with me?"

Ran: "Why would I be upset?"

He jumped off the counter and approached you. The look on his face would be enough to send any sane person with the vaguest sense of danger, spiraling right into a panic attack.

He crooked his head to the side as he kept speaking in a condescending way.

Ran: "Because you play me like a violin, dragging me in just so you can push me further away for your own entertainment? ..

Because, not only you're not honest with me but not even with yourself?

Why would I.. be upset?

I am only your bodyguard after all."

It was hard to listen to him speak. You didn't even dare to look up at him.

He had a point.

Y/n: "What do you want from me Ran?"

Ran: "What I want.. is for you to understand how hard this is for me. Being with you every single day, watching you but never allowed to have more. Knowing that you want me too and yet still not being able to do anything about it because you belong to him.. you re killing me y/n, don't you see it?"

Y/n: "You think it's any different for me? You think I have it easier? Because let me tell you right now.. you sure as hell make it hard for me not to want you."

Ran held back a grin as you were finally breaking.

Ran: "So you admit it?"

Y/n: "I do. You got in my head.. I don't know how you did it but.. Fuck, you're all I can think about. And I hate it, I hate everything about it because I am married!! Not only that, but I am married to a deeply deranged man who wouldn't hesitate a mere second before taking our lives for something like this. It's dangerous and reckless and stupid and I know better than to play along like this but..

Here I am. Wanting you."

That was it, you were so open, so vulnerable right now and he wasn't going to let an opportunity like that just pass. His look softened as your words kept pouring and he wasn't able to suppress  his urge anymore so instead of replying, he grabbed the back of your head and lead you forward until your lips crushed into each other violently.