Devils Of Bonten [Tokyo Revengers ff]

27.

I gulp involuntarily. This is bad. Really very bad. He looks at me trying to remain as calm as he can.

I went to Ran's cabin this morning with Sanzu. As ridiculous as it sounds, it is a fair thing to be angry about. Especially if you think from Rindou's perspective.

Plus, I hid it from him. Earlier when he asked me about my day, I had double thoughts of telling him. But I didn't because I didn't want him to be angry.

And well, here we are.

"I...I forgot to tell you."

Yes. Just kill me. Why am I so bad at coming up with excuses?

He doesn't even blink at what I just said. He keeps looking at me silently. I know, he wouldn't speak until I speak the truth.

I let out an exasperated sigh giving up.

"Alright I am sorry. I should have told you but I didn't because...see? You are mad at me."

He shakes his head.

"I am mad at you because you chose to hide it from me."

He paused then looked at me.

"Did Sanzu force you by any chance? If he did I will make sure to kill-"

I quickly interrupted him.

"He didn't. I went there. Willingly."

He becomes terribly silent as I look down not even having enough courage to look at him.

"What did Ran say?"

I looked up. Rindou's jaw was tightened and his fist clenched and I realised just how much he is controlling himself right now.

"He asked me about Cyderblack. I told him what I knew. That's all."

He looked at me. I don't know what he's even feeling. It's so hard to read the emotions on his face because he hardly ever shows any.

"That's all?... Didn't he gaslight you again? What did he tell you this time?"

Although his demeanor was completely calm I could clearly see the devil peaking.

"He didn't. And if he did, I wouldn't believe it unless I talk to you. Please Rindou... He's your brother. He congratulated me because he saw the ring."

I caressed the ring.

"How about you talk to him? Like I asked you to. Oh and without any violence."

He remains silent for a while. Good thing I could feel his anger decreasing.

He sighs and then caresses my cheek. His touch is so soft that I almost melt.

"I shouldn't have been mad at you...but don't hide anything from me. You know the thing about Suzy. She betrayed me Akio, she hid everything from me. So just don't do that to me...I just lost control."

I gulp and nod smiling lightly.

Although right now I feel like dying. Isn't this what I am doing right now? Lying to him. While he trusts me. And it hurts so much.

Our ride to the hospital was silent. I couldn't dare to look at him. Afraid that he might sense the lie. And then abandon me just like how everyone ever did.

My heart aches with that thought. I don't tend to remember my past life. But sometimes I can't help it. I remember him.

I remember him while I very well know I shouldn't. The only person who provided me the hope to live and then snatched it away and left me to die.