In Our Own Little World

My Name Is Heidi

I turned on my laptop video came and began to talk.
"Hi guys..my name is Heidi. I'm 13 years old and I would like to sing a song for you guys. So here it goes I guess." I click on Play and the instrumental version starts. I took a deep breath and start to sing.

"Four years old with my back to the door
All I could hear was the family war
Your selfish hands always expecting more
Am I your child or just a charity ward?

You have a hollowed out heart
But it's heavy in your chest
I try so hard to fight it but it's hopeless
Hopeless, you're hopeless

Oh, father, please, father
I'd love to leave you alone
But I can't let you go
Oh, father, please, father
Put the bottle down
For the love of a daughter
Oh

It's been five years since we've spoken last
And you can't take back
What we never had
Oh, I can be manipulated
Only so many times,
Before even "I love you"
Starts to feel like a lie

You have a hollowed out heart
But it's heavy in your chest
I try so hard to fight it but it's hopeless
Hopeless, you're hopeless

Oh, father, please, father
I'd love to leave you alone
But I can't let you go
Oh, father, please, father
Put the bottle down
For the love of a daughter

Don't you remember I'm your baby girl?
How could you push me out of your world,
Lied to your flesh and your blood,
Put your hands on the ones that you swore you loved?
Don't you remember I'm your baby girl?
How could you throw me right out of your world?
So young when the pain had begun
Now forever afraid of being loved

Oh, father, please, father
I'd love to leave you alone
But I can't let you go
Oh, father, please, father

Oh, father, please, father
Put the bottle down
For the love of a daughter
For the love of a dauugtherrrr!"
"Thanks guys. I hope you enjoyed that. The song was called A Love For A Daughter by Demi Lovato. Umm I have some news I have to tell you guys. I won't be on for a while because "I'll be out of state visiting family"you guys know what I mean by that. Well wish me luck tonight guys. Bye for now."
I ended the video. I edited some and uploaded it on to my YouTube channel. A few minutes later, I get a text saying "it's time Heidi." I grab my backpack and what ever else I need and turn my light off. I look out my window and saw the coast is clear to run. The reason why I'm running away is because I'm being abused by my dad. He's out with his friends at a bar getting drunk. My mom you ask? She's dead. She died from cancer when I was 10. Now ever since she left, my dad completely changed on me. We used to be so close when momma was alive. But now that doesn't exist any more.
I check my phone. It's midnight. Dad won't be home for another hour. It's time for me to go.
I jump out my window and run for it.
I'm free.
But I got to find somewhere to go.
I'll find a place.
Hopefully someone or some people will care enough about me and love me. I kind of need it right now.
I have no parents.
Or at least I did. Or better yet, I had A parent. My father stopped parenting me a long time go.
I miss you mom. I hope your not mad. But I don't think you are. You never were even though I did something I shouldn't have done. You still loved me. You never showed hatred.
I love you.
Now it's time to run.
I start running.
And running.
And running.
I'm not stopping.

I'm free.