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❝𝘐𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘣𝘰𝘥𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘩𝘦𝘭𝘱 𝘮𝘦 𝘯𝘰𝘸? // 𝘐𝘵'𝘴 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘐 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘬 𝘐'𝘮 𝘨𝘰𝘰𝘥, 𝘐 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘐'𝘮 𝘦𝘷𝘪𝘭 // 𝘐 𝘨𝘶𝘦𝘴𝘴 𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘵𝘳𝘺𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘪𝘵 𝘰𝘶𝘵❞

ꨄ

𝗢𝗖𝗧𝗢𝗕𝗘𝗥 𝟯𝗥𝗗 , 𝟮𝟬𝟮𝟯
𝗡𝗔𝗦𝗛𝗩𝗜𝗟𝗟𝗘 , 𝗧𝗘𝗡𝗡𝗘𝗦𝗦𝗘𝗘
𝟭𝟬:𝟰𝟵 𝗣𝗠

Kiana had just finished her show in Nashville, she headed immediately to her dressing room and frantically opened the orange bottle of pills and downed a couple of them. She let out a sigh of relief and allowed herself to collapse onto the small black couch in her dressing room.

Kiana was exhausted after her show, so she closed her eyes on the couch for a quick ten minute nap. But she regretted sleeping. When she did sleep, Kiana was forced to be alone with her thoughts. Though Kiana now had Katie and Naomi back in her life, she still desperately wanted Jo back. The two had been best friends for years, and now they hadn't spoken for months. To say that it was driving Kiana insane was an understatement. She gave up on trying to repair their friendship the minute she took those drugs.

After the show Kiana had gone out with her band and Hayden — Ethel Cain, who was her opener. They'd gone to a bar, not to get drunk, but simply just to have a few drinks and grab a bite to eat. But Kiana had no intention to stay sober that night. Her friends would not let her get wasted, she knew that, so Kiana had to find alternative ways to get any type of drug into her body. There were hardly moments where Kiana was sober, even on stage she was somewhat intoxicated, which was something few fans had noticed.

The group talked and laughed amongst themselves while they waited for their food, but Kiana was bouncing her leg and picking at the skin on her forearm. To Kiana it'd been far too long since she's had any sort of drug.

Hayden leaned towards Kiana, giving her a concerned look. "Are you okay?" She whispered.

Kiana nodded slightly. "Yeah, I'm- I'm fine" She stayed at the table for a minute longer before Kiana excused herself and exited the bar before anyone could say anything to her. Instead of finding another way to get high, Kiana had given up on that and left without saying anything.

She went around the bar and walked into an alley. Kiana reached into her front pocket for the baggie of pills and took both without any hesitation. An immediate sense of relief and relaxation washed over Kiana.

                                        𝗠𝗼𝗺𝗺𝗮

𝗠𝗼𝗺𝗺𝗮
Kiana sweetie I know it's late but I
wanted to ask you something

𝗞𝗶𝗮𝗻𝗮
What is it?

𝗠𝗼𝗺𝗺𝗮
I came across a video a fan posted and they
said that you've been seemingly high during
your shows
Are you doing drugs?

𝗞𝗶𝗮𝗻𝗮
What?
God no
You know how I feel about drugs

𝗠𝗼𝗺𝗺𝗮
Okay
I just had to make sure
I love you, I'm so proud of you

𝗞𝗶𝗮𝗻𝗮
Thanks
I love you too mom

Usually Kiana would feel some sort of guilt for lying to her mom, but she didn't feel anything. Kiana didn't have any intentions to tell her family she was actually high on stage, if she did it would only make them worry, and rightfully so, but she couldn't possibly wrap her head around the idea of anybody actually caring about her.