Summer Camp

Chapter 2

She looks at him longingly and says "but baby I love you. I want to spend the rest of my life with you" he stares at her not knowing what to do but his body acts before his mind can process; he sweeps her up and kisses her "I love you too my darling"

What a bunch of bull. I put the book back on the book shelf and go downstairs at the smell of food as normal, my mom and dad ignore me the entire dinner and just chatting amongst themselves leaving me out of everything.

I mean its not like I'm not used to it. They never talked to me and to be honest I haven't had a real conversation with them since my twin sisters death, they blame me for it but I didn't even know she was still in the house when the fire was happening. I finish eating and go upstairs to finish my daily summer routine

take shower

Do homework

Text Rachel/Mikey

Study for next year

Then go to sleep

Same thing everyday and it's what I'm comfortable with. I go into the bathroom and close the door behind me, striping my clothes to get in. As I take off my underwear I see the scars and fresh cuts at my underwear line so nobody but me can see I look away from the mirror not liking what I see and getting into the shower turning on the water to a warm-hot temperature, I wash my hair and body and get out, not in there for more then 10 minutes. I dry off and wrap the towel around my body and head into my room for summer homework.

Homework actually seemed fun to me now since I do it so much. Most guys my age would be partying during the summer not even thinking about the summer essay which technically you don't even have to do but I guess I'm different I like paying attention and doing what I'm told and if you need help with math class I could score you an A.

This time Rachel texts me first and I take minutes off of my homework time to answer her

"hey um don't be mad but I just sent Jacob the picture of you kissing that guy at the party and he showed it to his dad and his dad showed your dad" what

"what are you talking about??" I quickly type not believing what I just read

"Jacob heard your dad and his dad talking and he said they are thinking about sending you to some stupid summer camp" I didn't know what to think. Why the hell did she show him? She knew that I knew kissing the guy was a mistake. I texted back anger and betrayal in my words

"why the hell did you show him? Now this is going to spread and nothing is going to be the same"

she read instantly and started to reply "I'm so sorry you know I love you and wouldn't do anything to hurt you its just he saw it on my phone and demanded to see it"

I rolled my eyes trying to stay mad at her but I could tell she meant it "That's why you tell him no. I mean if he really loves you he would respect that" it was true I wasn't lying about it I mean I want a man who would respect my privacy

"he thought it was me and to prove it wasn't I showed him and you know how jealous he can get.. You understand right?" Jacob is an idiot but I'm glad he makes my friend happy so I guess its okay and who knows maybe everything will be okay.

I put my phone in my back pocket and worked on my report for about an hour until there was a knock on my door

"uh come in" I usually didn't have any interruptions considering it's 8:00pm. My mom walked in with her head down now unable to look me in the eyes all she did was hold up her phone that had the picture of me and that guy I don't even know the name of "what is this?" she asked with her deadly calm voice

'uh um I-I don't know.." I stuttered with a voice not even would believe

"you don't know?" she asked again. Her head popped up and her eyes got wide "YOU DON'T KNOW?!?" she came over to her slapped me holding my hands down on my lap as she got in my face "WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN 'YOU DON'T KNOW' OF COURSE YOU KNOW IT'S YOU" she let go of my hands but not without pushing me back shoving the phone in my face

"I-I-I'm sorry m-mom I-it was a mistake"I tried to defend myself

"oh a mistake", she had a fake smile on her face and did a fake laugh," of course it was a mistake and to make sure you don't make another one of these mistakes me and your father decided on sending you to a summer camp that promises to fix your stupid decisions" her voice got mad again at the 'stupid decisions' part and she left the room saying we leave at 7:00am tomorrow and I better have my stuff packed before then.

I felt worthless at this moment and I just wanted to die. Everything seemed to be collapsing at this moment I wouldn't be able to see Rachel and Mikey who are literally the only people who make me happy and I'm going to a camp that was going to 'fix me' ha fix me? More like mentally scar me... I felt like screaming but I knew my dad would coming in here and shut me up himself so I just cry silently.

The moonlight shined through the blinds and into my now pitch black dark room something was reflecting the light shining into my eye. I looked at my bookshelf and saw a razor leaning up against my books making me feel some peace. I slowly crawled over there not strong enough to say no. I grabbed the razor and pulled down my pants enough to see the other scars, I placed the razor on my skin and pushed in lightly biting my lip as tears roll down my face slowly moving my hand to the right but instantly seeing blood leak out of my body.

My parents knew I did this but they never cared. They always told me I should use my wrist instead because my thigh was probably getting full. They even got me the razor I'm using now.

I cut until there was blood going off my thigh and onto my carpet and just lay there letting the blood flow out of me. I would most likely wake up at six or not at all and I'm really hoping for the latter.

-to the next day-

I wake up to dry blood on my leg and mentally curse at myself I look at the clock and see '5:25am' I get up slowly not wanting to get light headed and trudge to the bathroom to clean this off and take a shower.

Once I'm in I wash off my body, clean my hair and get out as quick as that. I head back in my room to get dressed and pack my things

"I wish I was never gay none of this would have happened" I say quietly only audible for my ears. By the time I was done the clock struck 7:00 and my mom was calling me out the door. I grabbed my phone and texted Rachel and Mikey on our group chat

J: okay guys see you later off to some stupid camp and I'm not sure if there is gonna be wifi connection

R: hey it will be fine! Cheer up maybe you can meet some cute gay hottie there <3

M: rach its a 'fixing gay people' camp I don't think hes gonna find anyone

R: don't be so negative!

J: he's right though rach and do you think they can actually fix me.. ?

M: you cant fix something that's not broken

R: 110% agree with Mikey but hey talk to us everyday if you can promise?

J: promise.

M: bye beybe XD

R: see you laterrr

J: bye.

I sent my last text and headed downstairs putting my stuff into the back seat of my moms car and hoping in the front seat watching her leave the house and get in the drivers seat. I turned on the music to my moms station because even though I hate her music it's better than silence.

I stared out the car window and waited to get there. most people cant wait to go to summer camp but to me all I have to say is I can wait.

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DONE WITH CHAPTER 2

please ignore spelling and grammar errors I wrote this at my grandmothers and didn't have time to check over

(that is just an excuse honestly real reason is that most time i'm too lazy to check over and m sorry for that)

Thanks for reading

See you next chapter!