What if I had found love sooner... (A togaraka story)

Forgiveness is key

Toga Himiko: 

I think of my life and all I have went through as he asks me this question, truly considering if this could be a good option for me. 

'I.. I don't have much left in my life, nothing that's good anymore so I guess what's the point of trying to be a hero who saves others...'

His grin fades. 'You an idiot or what?' 

I look surprised as he says this. 

'You got into a fucking hero school, and you're saying that's nothing? You've achieved way too much with a villainous quirk, you are literally the kind of person everyone with a villainous quirk wishes to be like. Jeez I shouldn't be saying this, but you would be an idiot to throw that all away you know.'

My face turns to shock as I realise something, he's right. This villain Dabi, who's killed hundreds... He's right.. 

'Just go back to UA, also look behind you in your old house.. All of those nice messages, to you. You are a literal idiot to let that go to waste.'

'I uh...' I stutter while speaking. 

'Himiko Toga, just go back.' He says shooing me away with his hand. 

I then start walking away. 'Thank you...' I whisper as I leave, walking back to UA.

Uraraka Ochako: 

Deku-kun has recently woke up from his coma, we all went to visit him but something seems off about him and I'm still heartbroken about Himiko who hasn't returned, not even a slight sign of where she could have gone..

I sit in the living room of the 1A dorms, pondering about what I could possibly do. Until I hear something. 'Toga!?' Kaminari says surprised as everyone turns to look at him, and there I see her... 'Himiko-chan walking back into the UA dorms in her hero costume soaking wet from the rain. Everyone immediately runs to her, as well do I. 'Himiko oh my...' Mina says.

Himiko smiles slightly showing her fangs. 'I'm back..' 

Soon after I make eye contact with Himiko and I suddenly remember everything that happened, this makes me wonder if she hates me or not. If I could ever make up for being so rude to her, making her cry. As we make eye contact I look down to the floor embarrassed.

What is this feeling? Why do I care about Himiko-chan so much? More than I've ever cared about anyone I've ever known. Even more than my parents, even more than my other friends and even more then my crushes and what can I do to know if she cares about me this deeply too..?