The Club / Yoonmin FF

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Jimin tried really hard to get his shit together.

The first two weeks he really thought he could go back to his former self.

He was working on a new routine to adjust to and continued with the schedule he already had.

Jin and Tae came by often to keep him company. They talked about everything but Yoongi and never stayed over night.

Jimin understood. They have their partners.

But the nights were lonely.
And it was at night when he had his first attack. He was thinking about laying in the bathtub with Yoongi and the feeling in that memory pulled his chest tight together.

Dr Jungs breathing techniques got him out of it but he was still shocked that that could happened.

Over the next couple days he had several such attacks and they were always connected to some memories of Yoongi.

Yoongi lazy in bed. Yoongi nacked in the shower. Yoongi laughing in that cosy Restaurant. Yoongi with his coffee staring at him.
Ugh.

He never mentioned his attacks to Jin or Tae. He didn't want to worry them.

He also started to really hate the evenings and nights alone.
He could keep himself busy during the day but the nights were a different matter.

Lying on the couch with Yoongi, watching something stupid till they fall asleep.

Ugh, he held his head.
There it was again.

Like he's haunted.
He can't get him out of his head. It drive him nuts.

He also is in his dreams.
Always the same dream.

"I love you so much. "

It makes him cry.
He cried so much already.
He can't stop crying.

"I love you so much."

Jimin hugged himself crying again.
Will that ever stop?

A couple days went on like that till he couldn't bare it anymore and told Tae about it.
The whole think. The attacks, the memories, the dreams, the crying.
During talking he again started to cry, begging Tae for help to make it stop.

"You pabo." Tae said softly holding him I his arms. "You're in love with Yoongi. That what you feel now is lovesickness.
You're in love and you badly miss him. That's it."

Jimin sniffles
"Lovesickness." He says "I don't know. Are you sure about that?" He was highly irritated now.
Was he in love? How would he know?

"Oh, baby. We all know you love him. We saw it every day. You both are hopelessly in love with each other. Didn't you know?"

Jimin shakes his head.

"I've never seen you so happy and relaxed as you were with Yoongi. You even got jealous, remember. You were basically glued to him."

"That was because of the contract..."
Jimin started.

"No, baby. Don't lie to yourself. You wanted to be with him. Just like you said. You would have found a way out if you didn't want to stay."
Tae caressed him softly.

"You love him. Very much. And he loves you. Why don't you come home? We all miss you so much." He kissed him on his forehead.

"Think about it, let me know, I will make it happen."

***

Yoongi came back but didn't go back home.
He was still heartbroken and barley functioning. His business trip was great for distraction and also turned out very successful but didn't change anything otherwise.

Thinking about going home in that room full with Jimin stuff and Jimin memories made him sick.

He couldn't. He won't.

Maybe he should move in a different room altogether.
But its not just the room. Its the kitchen, the pool, the whirlpool, the garage. Maybe he should just burn down the whole damn house and start new.

Choi picked him up from the airport and then they drove straight to his mum.

Yoongi needed a vacation, just something else, maybe he also wanted to talk now. Maybe.

She hugged him tight when they arrived but didn't say a word. Yoongi and Choi took their rooms and then went over the little repair projects the want to work on.

The first 3 days were calm, no one really talked much. Everyone was just pleased with each other's Company. They got up, ate together, went to work on the projects and watched some weird reality TV shows together at night.

At the 4th day Yoongi joined grandma in the garden, helped digging, moving plants, cutting trees.

Then he sat on her swing and waited.
Of course she knew and came over and they talked till late night. He told her everything. His parents death. Raising JK, taking over the firm, the loneliness, the auction, the contract, Jimin, his feelings for him and the latest development.

It was exhausting, but
Choi took good care of them, bringing them drinks and food and a thick blankets.

Yoongi will never understand from where she got her positive attitude. After that long ass talk all she told him at the end was "It will be fine, don't give up."

Like, wtf, it's over already!
There is nothing more to do.
How will it be ever fine again?

Ugh.

It doesn't matter.

At least he got it of his chest. He felt some relief after it and that's good enough.

The days went on, Yoongi actually relaxed and started to have fun with this weird mother and son duo.

Choi and him discovered their love for card games and soon after grandma joined in.

He also discovered that it was not that easy to get her drunk with whiskey.

***

Jimin sat on Taes words for a week.
He just couldn't believe him. But what does he do now? He never had been in love. How would he know?

He talked to Jin about who basically said pretty much the same thing. No help there.

He went to therapy and talked to Dr Jung about it. Maybe the professional could help him.

After explaining the situation Dr Jung chuckled and agreed with his friend and brother.

Sooo...

He was in love?
In love with Yoongi?
How does everyone know and he doesn't?

They made an agreement:
The next week Jimin called Dr Jung every time he felt weird trying to figure out if they are right or not.

It seemed that every time he felt some out of the ordinary emotion it was always connected to Yoongi.